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So I had a mental breakdown on Friday. It finally all came out. Denny and I were discussing my responsibility issues around the house and I kept thinking to myself "there's another problem with me, there's another problem with me" over and over. Meanwhile what was coming out of my mouth was "You're right, I'll try to fix it" about 20 times I said that. Then I just got silent and then I just started sobbing. I haven't cried that hard in 2 years. He just held me and waited while I poured out all my short comings between hiccuping sobs. Then we started analizing the situation. I work 45-50 hours a week. I've been getting short tempered and crying all the time. I'm juggling two jobs, really needy mom, (bless his heart) a needy boyfriend, and cash shortage which occupies my thoughts every spare moment I have. Apparently those are big red flags for stress. So I'm scheduling me time. Denny says I'm not supposed to schedule free time but I can't help it. At least it is free time.