C'mon bebe, light my firrre...
soooo... Hi..*waves*
I have not been on in a very long time. For me, at least. Like.. My computer hasn't even been turned on. Bleh. Not that theres been any good reasoning behind it all. Im just lameass like that. mrow.
Sooo.. annnyhow..Richard and I.. have been together for a month on the 23rd.. which, basically beat my record with Ian....cos that was a month to the day. Watch me jump with excitement.
*stares*....... I'll get to my venting in a minute.
Becky left for England on Tuesday.. I didn't cry til she'd actually gone and.. got.. NO moral support whatsoever from Richard.. he just kind of sat there watching me cry.. mum on the other hand..well no wait. She didn't do shit either.. she.. patted my hand or something. Whores. Lets not comfort Amy in any way when her sister moves to another COUNTRY. I hate them all. But I also put together this neat picture frame for her.. of a bunch of small pics of us together.. it made her cry more. :\ but she liked it. Neh. I miss her already. Which is, odd?.. I never thought I would.. neeeh. Jerkass thinks its all because of him, too. Because apparently...he's the reason we hung out so much.. because I let him get a few quarters for matt...He thinks he's God. He needs to be kicked back to Earth.....
Im going out to Shooters tonite with Melissa, Crystal, ahhh... JR...Alex?.. other people.. i don't know? hahah.. mmph. Richard freeeeenessssss... I had a complete Richard-free day yesterday. Melissa almost peed herself when he wasn't in my car when I went down to the strip last nite.. She was like..'Wait a minute... no hip attachment?!?!' hehe.I ended up going over to his place about 12:15 or so.. stayed til 2...Did nothing of interest to me. Maybe to him. He wanted to do more? ehh.. no sex for amy. :) don't want to. don't need to. pointless. boring. yep.
Neh. I don't know why Im bitching so much about Rich.. it's the little things...(i hold sooo dear.. its just those little things that iii fearrr.. ooo cos im justa giiirl kalsfal. :x)
But, seriously...
Luke says Ive changed.. maybe?.. but.. he's saying it because..Richard is..what'd Rj call him?.. a wanksta? heh. And.. apparently.. Luke's decided I need to stick to my own "kind" or something. Or basically, 'Luke is not happy with anyone Amy is with unless it is Luke' but luke wouldn't be my type anyway!? Stupidness.
Sucky thing is.. im content? I suppose.. just not ..as happy as i'd like.. or.. as happy as i have been with other..ppl.
I love Rich.. and care about him a great greaaat deal.. im just not.. in love with him. yet.? i dont know if i ever will be..
i don't get butterflies when he says he loves me liiike.. with...mmm..yeah. i just dont.
and.. my voice has this flat, toneless quality when i say it back.
i completely dont even mean to do it either.
it gets so irritating when im trying to tell him something about myself and he kicks in with.. OOh.. one time.. me n tubby..
*stares* i don't fucking care about you n tubby. i was trying to tell you something.
he doesn't really listen. :\ if i try to talk to him about something that mildly interests me.. he changes the subject to involve him. reaaaally annoying.
i know i can't see myself with him for a long time... maybe for a while. but.. not.. long term deals. life would seem boring...
life seems boring now.
he brings up jennifer a lot too.
im not so sure hes over her.
subconciously at least.
bllleeeh.
i need..
rj...to talk to
cos i never talk to him
and he was my lifelife for how many months? yeah.
retard.
call me.
(psst.. yer gf is pretty too. :) )
AHHH.. rightright. Dad got my cell phone bill from Florida down to like.. $300 somehow.. they kicked off $600 of the charges.. neAt.. bwAHha.
mmpf. anyhow..
guess thats all?
I <3 Kat. :D
.xoxo
I have not been on in a very long time. For me, at least. Like.. My computer hasn't even been turned on. Bleh. Not that theres been any good reasoning behind it all. Im just lameass like that. mrow.
Sooo.. annnyhow..Richard and I.. have been together for a month on the 23rd.. which, basically beat my record with Ian....cos that was a month to the day. Watch me jump with excitement.
*stares*....... I'll get to my venting in a minute.
Becky left for England on Tuesday.. I didn't cry til she'd actually gone and.. got.. NO moral support whatsoever from Richard.. he just kind of sat there watching me cry.. mum on the other hand..well no wait. She didn't do shit either.. she.. patted my hand or something. Whores. Lets not comfort Amy in any way when her sister moves to another COUNTRY. I hate them all. But I also put together this neat picture frame for her.. of a bunch of small pics of us together.. it made her cry more. :\ but she liked it. Neh. I miss her already. Which is, odd?.. I never thought I would.. neeeh. Jerkass thinks its all because of him, too. Because apparently...he's the reason we hung out so much.. because I let him get a few quarters for matt...He thinks he's God. He needs to be kicked back to Earth.....
Im going out to Shooters tonite with Melissa, Crystal, ahhh... JR...Alex?.. other people.. i don't know? hahah.. mmph. Richard freeeeenessssss... I had a complete Richard-free day yesterday. Melissa almost peed herself when he wasn't in my car when I went down to the strip last nite.. She was like..'Wait a minute... no hip attachment?!?!' hehe.I ended up going over to his place about 12:15 or so.. stayed til 2...Did nothing of interest to me. Maybe to him. He wanted to do more? ehh.. no sex for amy. :) don't want to. don't need to. pointless. boring. yep.
Neh. I don't know why Im bitching so much about Rich.. it's the little things...(i hold sooo dear.. its just those little things that iii fearrr.. ooo cos im justa giiirl kalsfal. :x)
But, seriously...
Luke says Ive changed.. maybe?.. but.. he's saying it because..Richard is..what'd Rj call him?.. a wanksta? heh. And.. apparently.. Luke's decided I need to stick to my own "kind" or something. Or basically, 'Luke is not happy with anyone Amy is with unless it is Luke' but luke wouldn't be my type anyway!? Stupidness.
Sucky thing is.. im content? I suppose.. just not ..as happy as i'd like.. or.. as happy as i have been with other..ppl.
I love Rich.. and care about him a great greaaat deal.. im just not.. in love with him. yet.? i dont know if i ever will be..
i don't get butterflies when he says he loves me liiike.. with...mmm..yeah. i just dont.
and.. my voice has this flat, toneless quality when i say it back.
i completely dont even mean to do it either.
it gets so irritating when im trying to tell him something about myself and he kicks in with.. OOh.. one time.. me n tubby..
*stares* i don't fucking care about you n tubby. i was trying to tell you something.
he doesn't really listen. :\ if i try to talk to him about something that mildly interests me.. he changes the subject to involve him. reaaaally annoying.
i know i can't see myself with him for a long time... maybe for a while. but.. not.. long term deals. life would seem boring...
life seems boring now.
he brings up jennifer a lot too.
im not so sure hes over her.
subconciously at least.
bllleeeh.
i need..
rj...to talk to
cos i never talk to him
and he was my lifelife for how many months? yeah.
retard.
call me.
(psst.. yer gf is pretty too. :) )
AHHH.. rightright. Dad got my cell phone bill from Florida down to like.. $300 somehow.. they kicked off $600 of the charges.. neAt.. bwAHha.
mmpf. anyhow..
guess thats all?
I <3 Kat. :D
.xoxo