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hi whoever you are reading this, i feel like total shit,i dont really know y tho, feels like my relationship with brandy is dropping off again, i dont know, sumdays shes fun to talk to , sumdays it feels like shed rather me not call, and since she doesnt know whether she wants a relationship now or not, i dont know, its complicated, and tears at my heart, i know her parents dont want us to have a relationship, so that probly affects her feelings greatly, sometimes she feels like a different person, a person i dont like as much, i dont know , i know i dont like whatever has been rotting in the pit of my stomach since this morning to make me feel so shitty, i dont know, maybe its meant to be, maybe it isnt, i just have this horrible feeling that shes going to end what we have or could have again...sigh, sry, just needed to vent those feelings, helped a little bit i guess, oh well, nuthing else really going on cept work, laider