Feb 28, 2011 21:18
lisa,
you're in love with a guy who does not only not love you back
but he is in love with someone else
he also is probably seeing another girl on top of that and probably still hooking up with the girl he's in love with
he also shows limited interest in talking to you
he is probably a lot more excited by the idea of spending time with either one of those girls than spending time with you
you will not have a chance at physically seeing him for about another month and a half
unless he comes to visit you
which he wont
but even if he did, he would also want to see another one of his exes, who is one of his best friends apparently because she's just great and she just happens to live a building away from you
how convenient is that
even if you do hang out, nothing is special anymore because you're not together and he doesn't love you anymore and he's probably planning on hanging out with a different girl the next day
or taking her to parties or inviting her to his parties
stuff he never did with you
basically showing her off
which is something he stopped doing with you like six months into your relationship
you have been in love with this guy for lets face it, four years this august
you will never be with him again
because he doesn't want you
he's too busy hurting over breaking up with the girl he IS in love with
because it was one of the hardest things he's ever had to do
he got over you a long time ago
your friendship is important to him
he's still sexually attracted to you
but he doesn't want to be with you
he's not in love with you
nor does he want to be
he also broke your heart
you were not completely innocent either
but still
he did terrible things
everything to do with him hurts you
and yet you can't let him go
at least not as a friend
you can't stand him not being in your life
even though when you're in victoria
he's pretty much not in your life
but you want him to be
because you still love him
and you haven't told anyone
that's how you know this is bad
this is serious
you can't talk to anyone about it
you still love him
you want to be with him
but he has no interest in that
he doesn't even talk to you when you're both online on facebook
he didn't even say goodbye
he loves someone else
and you know it
so now the question i have to ask is...
what in the hell is wrong with you?