Keep me warm...
Awww...this is about to get all mushy...just thought Id warn you.
Today after lunch Terence came up to me and goes "At least seven people told me you and Jermaine were flirting with each other." I tried to explain that I wasn't even talking to the kid that he had me pinned.**~note: what happened at lunch was I was talking to Los and Jermaine called my name. When I didn't answer he hit me in the head and I started yelling at him. Then he came by and touched my hair. I didn't talk to him after that. When lunch was over I was walking out the door and he was in my way, I bumped into him and he backed me into a wall and wouldn't let me out. And as for the stupid people who said we were flirting, you really need to stop trying to stir up shit. All I know is that if Terence starts doubting me or leaves me because he thinks Im playing him...I will hunt whoever they are down and bust their faces in. Thanks, and have a nice day~** Terence obviously wasn't hearing what I was saying so I got pissed and walked away. After school I was still somewhat pissed off so there for a while things were quiet between us. We went to Frank's and sat in the big swing on his front porch. T ended up leaning over and saying "Keep me warm" and all I could do was wrap my arms around him and be glad he didn't get up and move. I instantly felt better and saw how stupid we both were somewhat being. All I could think about was that yes, I am guilty of liking Jermaine in the PAST...but I love Terence. I wouldn't pick Jermaine or anybody else in this world over T. Jermaine is simply an amusement, Terence is who I know would give me anything in the world I wanted or needed and loves me for me. No strings attached. He doesn't care that my dad is a complete nut case...he doesn't care that Im white...he doesn't care about the stupid shit I say or do. Its real with him. It always has been real with him. I can remember back to sitting with him in the hall during the lunch hour he skipped to keep me company because I didn't feel good. I remember the time him, Jermaine, and Glenn hurt my feelings...and he stayed in the gym with me until we talked things out. I still smile when I think back to the day we were laying upstairs in Eric's room and he told me he loved me. To this day I still get tingles and a rush of warm over my body when he kisses me and says it. Damn, I remember the first time he asked me out and how heartbroken I was that I thought he took it back, and how fast my heart was beating while I pretended like I was mad and didn't care...and then how fucking amazing it felt when I called him and we fixed things. My day goes great when things with Terence are good. Sadly though, if he is mad because of a basketball game or is irritated with me and doesnt tell me my whole world falls apart and I just shut down. The only thing I am sure of, is that the past six months with him have been amazing. I truly do take him for granted some times and I really shouldnt...because he could pick up and leave me any day. I hope not, because he surely is the best thing going for me.
Well Im going to go...he should be calling soon.
Thank god for not going to school until 9:30 a.m. though...