The concrete looks to thin to break my fall ...
I counted people as I neared the street below.
So I decided about two minutes ago that I should kill myself. Thats right ... I SHOULD KILL MYSELF!!! This fucking sucks. I call people, no one returns my calls. It seems like everyone is nice to my face, but actually they all hate me. You know I don't mind people not liking me its when they lie that pisses me off. Today I was suppose to hang out with someone and I called him, he didn't pick up. I called him again he picked up and he is sorry, but he can't hang out today. *Sigh* Ok. I'm sorry what? You didn't get my message? Woah! Phones might just be revolting and not working ... greeeeeaaaaaaaaaaat. What? You gonna call me Friday so we can hang out. Greaaaat! It's ok I kinda wanted to stay in on a Friday night anyway. Wait? You got my message but didn't save my number then you called me, but didn't leave a message because you thought I don't like listening to messages???!!! What the hell is wrong with you people!??!?! I have no friends here! So a message from someone who "wants to hang out" is a good thing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11111111 Fucking hell!!!!!!!!1111 There are no auditions and if there are its for SAG only and I can't join SAG unless I have been on two TV shows or commercials or Print Ads. FUUUUCCKKKK!!! I'm gonna go in the city and hopefully get killed by someone!