crazyness
yesturday was one of the better days I woke up at 5 30 am for some reason went for a walk then watched a little tv then cleans my room then Me and the family went to whites we didn't fight which was new.anyways the day was nice I got to finally hang out with Ian.WHich was nice.the whole day was awesome.it wans't untill later that night my mom started asking to do a bunch of stuff for her then I asked her for money and a big fight got started.I don;t know what It is.I think it miht be a few things I just need to survive the next two years with her.I really need to survive the next two months.My grades suck and things Are just going to get more crazy with golf Season starting.two month two month two months.I'm sure It will go by fast Its just rioght now I have to keep things together.I really need to save money everytime i think about getting some I just want to spend it cause If i have cash my mom will just send me on a bunch of errands thats I end up paying for.It makes me made cause she always blames me for the bills.She'll tell me "the reason I'm behind Is Be Cause SOME ONE didn't help me out last months and went to portland every other weekend" Oh SO Me going to portland is why we're in debt It's not because YOu went to the casino for two days straight and blew your taxes.That has nothing to do with whats Going on now.I'm sick of it.Its tearing me apart and I just want to get through This.BUt its hard to get through somthing when All you see and feel ahead is more walls.Its liek the future is going to be dim for ever. I just feel ANy splurging from now on is going to have a negative ripple effect on the future.
Oh well I don;t want to bitch everything will work out.
I figure the next two month are going to be hard though. I really need to buckle down and only buy what i need.
right now I'm at work.It sucks I don;t want to be here but then again I'd rather be here instead of at school.I really can't wait for school to be out.I stil haven;t decided what i want to do for summer.It all depends on how much I make in april from working.Spring break has been nice even better with the return of Ian.Plus Visting nancy was what i really needed last weekend since I hadn't been to portland for three weeks before then.yeaaah 4 more hours till I'm done.woot.
Oh well I don;t want to bitch everything will work out.
I figure the next two month are going to be hard though. I really need to buckle down and only buy what i need.
right now I'm at work.It sucks I don;t want to be here but then again I'd rather be here instead of at school.I really can't wait for school to be out.I stil haven;t decided what i want to do for summer.It all depends on how much I make in april from working.Spring break has been nice even better with the return of Ian.Plus Visting nancy was what i really needed last weekend since I hadn't been to portland for three weeks before then.yeaaah 4 more hours till I'm done.woot.