Some more bitching
my brother and mother irratate the hell out of me.thsi morning big fight over what happen to larrys jeans.I'm just sitting around casuse I'm ready for work I went to bed last night right after talking to Ian I tryed to stay up but i crashed out at about 8ish.woke up at 6 got ready by 6 30 and spent a good hour and half just listening to music untill my brother started to freak out that he had no clean cloths and why didn't my mom or I do his laundry and how his jeans dissapered then my mom goes "cherise did You pick up larrys jeans?" I'm thinking at this point WTF I'm never heard of somthing more stupid in my life.Larry has taken over teh l;iving room with his cloths and Lacrosse shit everywere but the minute I have anything out their Its Liek "CHERISE GEt your shit out of here" with larry its liek "don;t move anything UNless Larry KNows" I hate teh whole sick situation my mom has created with him.I'm always the Enemy in this house Yet I work,go to school and shows up to golf practice daily.While My brother goes to school every other day and goes to his lacrosse practice when he wants to while still getting 5 to 7 hours of Tv in ever night Claiming to be doing "homework".I wish i could have this life. Larry has it so easy.
Thsi morning I was outside with my mom and she starts telling me whats going to be done for spring break.All teh yard work Is going to be done before do anything fun.I'm already working from 9 to 2 the whole week of spring break. Larry Is probably going to get In a good 100 hours of TV and computer time In.While I'm working PSSh.Makes me so mad. Meh all I can do Is keep working.
Anyways besides My home life being SHitty which Is OLD news Theirs really nothing new to report.besidews that I'm glad I'm working again and that I can't wait to get the pay check. right now I"m just sort of sitting here at work.My uncle is coming back tomorrow Hopfully he won't cut my hours I really need to work all of spring break I don;t have anything else I would rather do. Only down fall is that i don;t get paid till the first also i have to get My dad To take over my car insurance wich is 200$ no matter who I went through.Meeh.I wish I could get drunk. Life is too down for me right now. I just want to graduate and move out. I look at scholarships I'm going to start writing Essays when i have a free moment I'm hopfull tahts I'll get a few. I want to start going back to counsling yet Its a 5$ co-pay each time which could Be 5$ in gas.I ;ve just been so resentfull & bitter FOr how I feel about my mom. SHe so selfish.anyways I coudl go ON and ON about thing with her don;t get me wrong she has done alot of good things but mostly it the way she does them that makes me so Upset. she was not cut out to be a parent AT all She's never been there emotional for me and when i tryed to get her to be their she always would tell me to get Over it.Yet When ever she was depressed Or needed emotional Support I was always succker in to it.
I guess Overall Its not that bad.Some one could be dieing.
Thsi morning I was outside with my mom and she starts telling me whats going to be done for spring break.All teh yard work Is going to be done before do anything fun.I'm already working from 9 to 2 the whole week of spring break. Larry Is probably going to get In a good 100 hours of TV and computer time In.While I'm working PSSh.Makes me so mad. Meh all I can do Is keep working.
Anyways besides My home life being SHitty which Is OLD news Theirs really nothing new to report.besidews that I'm glad I'm working again and that I can't wait to get the pay check. right now I"m just sort of sitting here at work.My uncle is coming back tomorrow Hopfully he won't cut my hours I really need to work all of spring break I don;t have anything else I would rather do. Only down fall is that i don;t get paid till the first also i have to get My dad To take over my car insurance wich is 200$ no matter who I went through.Meeh.I wish I could get drunk. Life is too down for me right now. I just want to graduate and move out. I look at scholarships I'm going to start writing Essays when i have a free moment I'm hopfull tahts I'll get a few. I want to start going back to counsling yet Its a 5$ co-pay each time which could Be 5$ in gas.I ;ve just been so resentfull & bitter FOr how I feel about my mom. SHe so selfish.anyways I coudl go ON and ON about thing with her don;t get me wrong she has done alot of good things but mostly it the way she does them that makes me so Upset. she was not cut out to be a parent AT all She's never been there emotional for me and when i tryed to get her to be their she always would tell me to get Over it.Yet When ever she was depressed Or needed emotional Support I was always succker in to it.
I guess Overall Its not that bad.Some one could be dieing.