circus
i don't want my past when i can go further into my future.
why is it, that with in the last week and a half i have had 3 people talk to me from my past.
i don't know what to make of it, and it's really freaking weird.
and right now, i really just want to move forward and forget what happened. i need to not concentrate on what gives me anxiety, past problems, thinking about future ones...
i saw a poster for a post grad school. new york, london, and somewhere in asia [i forget exactly] and i wonder if thats what i need. spend a year in london, italy made me a different person and i'm starting to forget exactly what it did for me and falling further into my shell of being sheltered. i hate it. i don't know why i'm so afraid of everything around me.
and this isn't making sense.
and i have the worst cramps i have had in god knows how long, and i never get them at night.
and i think it's pretty shitty you only talk to me when things are bad.
and my hormones are making me want to bawl my eyes out for something i don't even know.
i want to find an answer.
why is it, that with in the last week and a half i have had 3 people talk to me from my past.
i don't know what to make of it, and it's really freaking weird.
and right now, i really just want to move forward and forget what happened. i need to not concentrate on what gives me anxiety, past problems, thinking about future ones...
i saw a poster for a post grad school. new york, london, and somewhere in asia [i forget exactly] and i wonder if thats what i need. spend a year in london, italy made me a different person and i'm starting to forget exactly what it did for me and falling further into my shell of being sheltered. i hate it. i don't know why i'm so afraid of everything around me.
and this isn't making sense.
and i have the worst cramps i have had in god knows how long, and i never get them at night.
and i think it's pretty shitty you only talk to me when things are bad.
and my hormones are making me want to bawl my eyes out for something i don't even know.
i want to find an answer.