trapped.
i hate endings.
but at the same time, i'm ready for this year to be over.
i sometimes wish that i hadn't been in italy first semester. i don't really talk to any one i went with anymore. besides like maybe 3 people tops.
i don't know what i want right now.
i don't want to go home.
and i don't want to be here.
i'm at the point where if i could afford it, and had time to keep a job during the year, i'd just get my own apartment. [with other people though] but that would require me also having a car that was just mine and the ability to pay for this outrageous gas and still have money in my pocket at the end of the month.
this is no where near being possible yet.
and i don't know if i can do design anymore, but i don't want to waste money, and i don't want to waste time, and i sure as hell don't want to be here for a fifth year because i changed my major.
i feel trapped.
but at the same time, i'm ready for this year to be over.
i sometimes wish that i hadn't been in italy first semester. i don't really talk to any one i went with anymore. besides like maybe 3 people tops.
i don't know what i want right now.
i don't want to go home.
and i don't want to be here.
i'm at the point where if i could afford it, and had time to keep a job during the year, i'd just get my own apartment. [with other people though] but that would require me also having a car that was just mine and the ability to pay for this outrageous gas and still have money in my pocket at the end of the month.
this is no where near being possible yet.
and i don't know if i can do design anymore, but i don't want to waste money, and i don't want to waste time, and i sure as hell don't want to be here for a fifth year because i changed my major.
i feel trapped.