fuuuuuck.
my heart just completely broke and i'm on the other side of the atlantic ocean.
i hate this miserable feeling i've been having for the past few months.
uggggggh fuck this.
i think i'm just going to block everything out for a while.
maybe until i can fix things.
maybe until i can actually sit somewhere with a huge ass smile on my face because for once in my fucking life i'd like to just be completely happy.
and not be dependent on other people.
being alone doesn't go away when you go to study abroad for a semester.
it only gets worse.
and as much as i just want to go home i don't ever want to go back.
it's so hard to supress my anger in a place like this.
i just want to fucking erupit and break every beautiful thing i see.
i hate this miserable feeling i've been having for the past few months.
uggggggh fuck this.
i think i'm just going to block everything out for a while.
maybe until i can fix things.
maybe until i can actually sit somewhere with a huge ass smile on my face because for once in my fucking life i'd like to just be completely happy.
and not be dependent on other people.
being alone doesn't go away when you go to study abroad for a semester.
it only gets worse.
and as much as i just want to go home i don't ever want to go back.
it's so hard to supress my anger in a place like this.
i just want to fucking erupit and break every beautiful thing i see.