Dreams
It's been a long time since I posted something here. Theres been so much going on in my life that I don't know where to start...
I recently ended my last relationship. I didn't want to, but it had to be done. I know that if I wouldn't have done it, he would of ended later on...I wouldn't be able to handle that. Getting hurt again is not something I want. I still care for him...and I know he cares about me. Only time will tell if we can give it another try again.
The real thing that bugs me of all this right now is that...if the doctor hadn't asked him if he had anything new that could be causing him any stress and him answering he is in a new relationship and the doctor telling him that maybe that might be why he could be stressing....I'm pretty sure that we still be together....but the more I think of it, I think later long the line he would've broken up with me...and I couldn't let that happen. Another thing that bugs me is that I was the only thing that was stress free to him. He would tell me so. So why let go of that one thing/person that you can relax to? I don't understand that...or maybe I do.
I do know what stress is like and how it can get to you. When I went back to school after a couple of years of not going. The 1st year was so overwhelming. I can understand him wanting to focus on that. Shoot, that's what I've been doing, that's my 1st priority and the rest my 2nd *which includes, work, family, friends, and love life*. I think is a male thing; women just know how to multi task. I had to do what would be healthiest for him and what would be best for me. Who knows what the future has for us later on. I know that at the beginning it will be weird not to do the girlfriend thing, but I'm 100% sure I can still talk to him like always...nothing has change there other that we are not an item anymore...but that doesn't mean we can't talk. That I recall, we were friends at 1st before anything happen. I still want to be friends with him.
Anyway, it's a new year, new start! I'm very excited about it :).
2007 was such a roller coaster. Let's see what this one brings.
*****************************************************************************
DREAMS are so weird, specially the vivid ones...
I'd like to share one of dreams I had last night. I usually google it to see what it could mean. The dream I had last night had this white anaconda chasing me and it bit me. I remember running away from it but not being scared of it after it bit me. It just stood there looking at me.
Okay so online it says this :
" To see a snake or be bitten by one in your dream, signifies hidden fears and worries that are threatening you. Your dream may be alerting you to something in your waking life that you are not aware of or that has not yet surfaced. The snake may also be seen as phallic and thus symbolize dangerous and forbidden sexuality. The snake may also refer to a person around you who is callous, ruthless, and can't be trusted. As a positive symbol, snakes represent transformation, knowledge and wisdom. It is indicative of self-renewal and positive changes."
Yup, I have been worried about a couple of things. I too been sexual frustrated :(... I dunno about the person I shouldn't trust...or it could be my manager hmmm interesting. I really hope theres a new transformation for the good. Positive things? cool! Send me good vibes!
I probably end up putting more dreams in this journal to understand them better. AnywhOO, that's all for now.
I recently ended my last relationship. I didn't want to, but it had to be done. I know that if I wouldn't have done it, he would of ended later on...I wouldn't be able to handle that. Getting hurt again is not something I want. I still care for him...and I know he cares about me. Only time will tell if we can give it another try again.
The real thing that bugs me of all this right now is that...if the doctor hadn't asked him if he had anything new that could be causing him any stress and him answering he is in a new relationship and the doctor telling him that maybe that might be why he could be stressing....I'm pretty sure that we still be together....but the more I think of it, I think later long the line he would've broken up with me...and I couldn't let that happen. Another thing that bugs me is that I was the only thing that was stress free to him. He would tell me so. So why let go of that one thing/person that you can relax to? I don't understand that...or maybe I do.
I do know what stress is like and how it can get to you. When I went back to school after a couple of years of not going. The 1st year was so overwhelming. I can understand him wanting to focus on that. Shoot, that's what I've been doing, that's my 1st priority and the rest my 2nd *which includes, work, family, friends, and love life*. I think is a male thing; women just know how to multi task. I had to do what would be healthiest for him and what would be best for me. Who knows what the future has for us later on. I know that at the beginning it will be weird not to do the girlfriend thing, but I'm 100% sure I can still talk to him like always...nothing has change there other that we are not an item anymore...but that doesn't mean we can't talk. That I recall, we were friends at 1st before anything happen. I still want to be friends with him.
Anyway, it's a new year, new start! I'm very excited about it :).
2007 was such a roller coaster. Let's see what this one brings.
*****************************************************************************
DREAMS are so weird, specially the vivid ones...
I'd like to share one of dreams I had last night. I usually google it to see what it could mean. The dream I had last night had this white anaconda chasing me and it bit me. I remember running away from it but not being scared of it after it bit me. It just stood there looking at me.
Okay so online it says this :
" To see a snake or be bitten by one in your dream, signifies hidden fears and worries that are threatening you. Your dream may be alerting you to something in your waking life that you are not aware of or that has not yet surfaced. The snake may also be seen as phallic and thus symbolize dangerous and forbidden sexuality. The snake may also refer to a person around you who is callous, ruthless, and can't be trusted. As a positive symbol, snakes represent transformation, knowledge and wisdom. It is indicative of self-renewal and positive changes."
Yup, I have been worried about a couple of things. I too been sexual frustrated :(... I dunno about the person I shouldn't trust...or it could be my manager hmmm interesting. I really hope theres a new transformation for the good. Positive things? cool! Send me good vibes!
I probably end up putting more dreams in this journal to understand them better. AnywhOO, that's all for now.