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rain is beautiful.. people say it represents pain but to the open minded it washes away the pain... its better than anything.. it always rains on perfect days.. it makes the lack of love feel unreal... my bruise is huge... i hate him.. i really hate him so much... i need to be in love.. i need a real relationship.. i like a guy... i have liked him since i met him at dog daze last summer.. hes funny and adorable.. and im hooked.. arg.. but everyone wants him and hailey to hook... ugh i never liked her.. evey since last year shes been nothing but mean to me.. teaseing me about being fat.. arg shes fat.. and mean.. and rude... and has wierd hair.. i mena im fat and ugly and have wierd hair.. but i admit it... arg.. i need a hug.. and onhfg why do i like him.. he more than likely dosent like me.. but oh god i dig he seriously... it really makes me sad when i see him,... i know i obsess over a lot of guys.. but ive obsessed over him for almost 10 months.. ive never had a crush this long... when i see him eveything else just fades.. i mean its like his smile makes me happy when i have had a shitty day.. he cheers me.. even when he dosent say a word.. arg i wish he would like me... i really want to date him.. not fuck him or kiss him.. just be around him... hug him.. im not all rapest towards him.. just his presence makes me happy... he is wonderful... ::leaves to dance in the rain::