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So the deal is, I leave for France two days before Cody's birthday. Rightly so, he is upset about this, but I've told him that I will make it up to him somehow, and I already have something in mind. He continues to mope, however, and seems to find it rather satisfying to see that this is causing me a significant amount of pain. I feel terrible about going to France now, which is wrong, and he tells me not to, but then he goes off about how bad it is for him because nobody else is going to be here for his birthday as well. Apparently, he feels as though everyone is doing this to him on purpose and are out to get him or something. I keep trying to make it better, but every time I talk to him, he makes ME feel worse. I'm beginning to think that turning down that trip to St. Louis back in October was a bad idea. Maybe now he thinks that I'm going to turn this trip down, too, which would cause my family a HUGE amount of grief and wasted money ($2,000 worth). He's hurt when I have to go away for a WEEKEND let alone 10 days. It's like I'm supposed to be there whenever he wants me to be, and I can't do that. I'm not ready to settle down and be the little housewife yet. Someday I will be, but not yet.