Cause Im Done With This...
i'd like to extend a big lovely Thank You and Fuck You to anyone who has ever lied to me to make me think i had a chance with someone when i clearly did not or lied to make me feel better. also to anyone who has ever told me i was pretty and did not in fact mean it.
im saying Thank You because while you were lying to me im sure that i had hope and for a little bit there i was happy. and im saying Fuck You because i let that hope make me think that i had a chance and like the Atreyu song says 'Hope Has Left Me Fucking Shattered'.
im done with hoping and im done with being quiet.
i may be sick of being lonely but ive come to the conclusion its all ill ever be so why change it? im going to keep thinking that im worthless until someone comes along and proves it wrong, but i dont see that happening anytime soon so im just gonna admit to myself that im going to be lonely forever and find something to distract me from that fact.
...end of story...
im saying Thank You because while you were lying to me im sure that i had hope and for a little bit there i was happy. and im saying Fuck You because i let that hope make me think that i had a chance and like the Atreyu song says 'Hope Has Left Me Fucking Shattered'.
im done with hoping and im done with being quiet.
i may be sick of being lonely but ive come to the conclusion its all ill ever be so why change it? im going to keep thinking that im worthless until someone comes along and proves it wrong, but i dont see that happening anytime soon so im just gonna admit to myself that im going to be lonely forever and find something to distract me from that fact.
...end of story...