Letters to people, some may get them, some may not...
To Duastin (ice skating dj, very religious) and all the other people who notice me not wearing as much black:
I dont wear as much black, and i dont like being treated like im a totally different person because of the color of my clothes.. thats topping people making slaves of people with different color skin...
To Adam
I wonder if you know how fucking angry i am i got caught up in another asshole like you. I mean you are a good person.. when you arent around other preppy girls.. okay so im not the best looking, and i dont flirt with you 24/7 that doesnt mean im a bad person, and when you hang out with me all day.. i sometimes wonder if you are just using me to get to monica..
To all the guys who like monica:
Fuck you. I dont want people coming up to me and asking about if she would "say yes" or if she would like you back.. IF YOU HAVENT NOTICED.. I DONT GIVE A FUCK!~ Also im not your key to the secret door, so go find another victim
To Brandon
I am sorry i didnt see how much different you were from other guys.. but in a way, you are all the same. You were twofaced, but amazing when you felt like being that.. and you have something a lot of the other guys i know dont have.. Respect.. although its only when you and me are friends, the respect you have for me and others is amazing.. and i have to learn to let go.
To Monica
OKay, so yes i am a little mad.. or a lot mad at you.. you go around acting all happy and shit and you have so much that you take advantage of.. THEN YOU GO AND FUCKING SAY YOU ARE SO UNHAPPY.. whatever.. you make decisions like that, and like going to a dark videogame place with tons of weirdos.. i always tell you to take care of yourself, and you dont know how much it hurts me.. And also, how about you try not being the center of every guys attention, and put yourself in my shoes.. when every guy you ever even look at with your best friend LOVES HER. Im done with this Bullshit. I am, you flirting with way older guys and like you flirt with everyone. AGDgfasutrvaslrjdaslj
To Rosa, Natosha, etc...
You guys were hilarious tonight. Rosa i still gots your sweatshirt.. and Natosha.. how about sharing another kiss? lolol
To Rebekah
I am so jelous of you, you just skated up to that guy and talked to him.. you are so pretty.. lol
To myself
Well, time to write what i am unhappy about in myself.. i think you need more confidence. You need to believe and not let things dig into you so much. Breathe. Dont live a life of oblivion, but dont live a colorless one. Take the times you are happy, and let them over power the bad.. highschool will be better.. you can meet people who are into art and jazz and writing..
*added later To whichever one of the stupid seevie girls who tripped me on the bus when you tripped me when i was getting off i seriously was going to just sit down and cry. you fucking crossed the line