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Sooo
I havnt posted on here in a long ass time. But I feel like getting some things off my chest so I decided to use this dumb thing.
My past relationships have sucked
theres only been one I can honestly say I dont regret
I so used to being hurt, that Its to the point were Im paranoid about everything. Im constantly afraid that if I do one simple thing wrong, Im going to lose the person I care about the most right now. I feel like Im not good enough for anyone.
Ive been told by ex's that im not easy enough for them, or im not rich enough, or I care to much
and because of things like that, I dont know whats even like right or wrong anymore
like when things happen, I think "should I tell him?, or will he freak out and dump me because Im annoying" or if I tell him Im afraid about certain things, will he think its stupid and not want a gf that worrie so much. Basically, my trust in people is at an all time low right now.
And for some weird reason, I actually REALLY want this to work because
someone makes me feel more incredible than I ever have before. Call it fucking stupid or whatever you want. I just dont want to tell people certain things because I dont want to lose them.
Or to think Im "rushing" things, So I bottle it all up. I think once I feel that nothing can seperate me from them, Ill open up more
-I just dont know what to do. It makes me cry alot sometimes, because when I think about it, I think of my past, which just makes it worse. Because I miss a few people. And it amazes me how they change. I hate change more than anything else in the world. I dont care what people think when they read this
No one reads this damn thing anyways hahaha
faggots.
To sum all this shit up, I just need to know that peoples feelings are real, and if there not
let me know before I get in over my head and end up broken hearted
again.
THINGS PEOPLE DO THAT ABSOLOUTLY AMAZE ME:
I love it when....
-I get flowers from the grocery store
-I get hand made gifts
-I get lots of kisses
-I get told how much im loved every few seconds(and meaning it)
-Holding my hand like your proud that Im yours
-Not being afriad to show the world you love me
-Late night phone calls until I fall asleep
-Being told Im missed everyday
-Not caring what were doing, as long as were together
-Being completely honest to me
-I get Eskimo kisses
-Not caring about whats on the outside, but whats on the inside
-Not taking advantage of me
-Thinking that just because you cheated once, Its ok to do it again
-Looking into my eyes
-Big Bear hugs
-Being reminded just how special I am to you
-Having bonfires and star gazing with me all night
but yeah, Whatever
I havnt posted on here in a long ass time. But I feel like getting some things off my chest so I decided to use this dumb thing.
My past relationships have sucked
theres only been one I can honestly say I dont regret
I so used to being hurt, that Its to the point were Im paranoid about everything. Im constantly afraid that if I do one simple thing wrong, Im going to lose the person I care about the most right now. I feel like Im not good enough for anyone.
Ive been told by ex's that im not easy enough for them, or im not rich enough, or I care to much
and because of things like that, I dont know whats even like right or wrong anymore
like when things happen, I think "should I tell him?, or will he freak out and dump me because Im annoying" or if I tell him Im afraid about certain things, will he think its stupid and not want a gf that worrie so much. Basically, my trust in people is at an all time low right now.
And for some weird reason, I actually REALLY want this to work because
someone makes me feel more incredible than I ever have before. Call it fucking stupid or whatever you want. I just dont want to tell people certain things because I dont want to lose them.
Or to think Im "rushing" things, So I bottle it all up. I think once I feel that nothing can seperate me from them, Ill open up more
-I just dont know what to do. It makes me cry alot sometimes, because when I think about it, I think of my past, which just makes it worse. Because I miss a few people. And it amazes me how they change. I hate change more than anything else in the world. I dont care what people think when they read this
No one reads this damn thing anyways hahaha
faggots.
To sum all this shit up, I just need to know that peoples feelings are real, and if there not
let me know before I get in over my head and end up broken hearted
again.
THINGS PEOPLE DO THAT ABSOLOUTLY AMAZE ME:
I love it when....
-I get flowers from the grocery store
-I get hand made gifts
-I get lots of kisses
-I get told how much im loved every few seconds(and meaning it)
-Holding my hand like your proud that Im yours
-Not being afriad to show the world you love me
-Late night phone calls until I fall asleep
-Being told Im missed everyday
-Not caring what were doing, as long as were together
-Being completely honest to me
-I get Eskimo kisses
-Not caring about whats on the outside, but whats on the inside
-Not taking advantage of me
-Thinking that just because you cheated once, Its ok to do it again
-Looking into my eyes
-Big Bear hugs
-Being reminded just how special I am to you
-Having bonfires and star gazing with me all night
but yeah, Whatever