friends
I have come to the realization that I do not have any CLOSE friends…and the friends that I have now do not share the same tastes as me…which then makes me wonder why they are my friends to begin with. There are so many things that I like to do, that none of my friends like to do. I have always been that person who has given 110% to my friends and none of my friends return the favor.
Heres a list of things I like to do
Watch baseball
Watch football
Watch soccer
Go to concerts
Listen to music
Travel
Drink at campus bars
None of my friends likes to do these. Ok let me rephrase this….my friends CLAIM they like these things, but when I set forth a plan of action to partake in any of these events…..they suddenly don’t “feel” like going. Or “it is too far” so I am thus stuck continually doing things THEY want to do. I know it sounds selfish, but seriously I don’t necessarily want to go to the same bar in hilliard, I WANT to go on a vacation this year, I WANT to see a baseball game this summer. But all I have done this summer is go to the Junction. I have tried NUMEROUS times to set up a vacation, but no one will make the commitment. Baseball games….well I have the fourth off with the intention to go to a game, but no one is willing to go.
The other night I had a dream that I just up and moved to boston and didn’t tell anyone. I got a job as a bartender near fenway park. None of the people who say they are my friends called me or even noticed me gone. Looking back I feel like I wouldn’t mind that at all. Just up and moving somewhere at the end of my lease….spending this next year saving to do so. Moving, starting fresh, and not telling anyone. I am sure I would miss some people, hell with these “friends” I have now, I am unable to hang out with people I used to…..and I miss them. Dustin, AJ, Allison, etc.
I think I am just going to stop hanging out with these people, and save my money, rather then go to the same place and drink it away. I hardly have any fun anyways, and they always ignore me so I am sure they wont miss me.
Super frustrated about my life pocket!!!