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So Im trying...thats about all I can do after all of this.
This that Im talking about is well here...
Within the past year I worked my ass off gave up alot and tried so hard, and I DID IT.
Then I through it all away.
I worked got into college.
Proved everyone wrong about that.
I worked got a car.
Proved everyone wrong about that.
I worked got my DL.
Proved everyone wrong about that.
I worked and then tossed it to the side like it was nothing.
Proved everyone right.
I worked so hard to prove to everyone that I was better than what they thought. That I would make it even if my past said I couldnt.
Then I got crazy.
Lost relationships.
Lost my family.
Moved away from home to live with a jerk.
I give it hell to have things the right way.
And then I give it hell to lose them.
I even had a great job.
I made at least 1000+ a month.
I had a year in school and I was done.
Now look at me.
I have nothing.
No job.
No Car.
No DL.
No friends.
I barely have my family.
I have Jim.
I live with him.
I walk everyday looking for a job.
No one will hire me.
I have a bad track record.
I just want a chance.
To turn this train wreck I call life around.
Whats said is I didnt toss all I had to the side for anything other than my bull headed-ness.
I worked so hard on my own and got everything I needed without anyone I made myself believe that I would never need anyone.
I found out the hard way I was dead wrong.
You do need people.
People you can love.
And trust.
More than that you need people who can also love and trust you.
I have that in one person.
In Jim.
But I miss my family.
My friends.
I have burned so many bridges so fast I cant even recall most of them.
I guess all I can do is put faith in God and myself. I have to do that before I can expect anyone to put faith in me.
And maybe I will be blessed in life.
I have to get out of where I live.
I need my own place.
Somewhere stressfree.
This that Im talking about is well here...
Within the past year I worked my ass off gave up alot and tried so hard, and I DID IT.
Then I through it all away.
I worked got into college.
Proved everyone wrong about that.
I worked got a car.
Proved everyone wrong about that.
I worked got my DL.
Proved everyone wrong about that.
I worked and then tossed it to the side like it was nothing.
Proved everyone right.
I worked so hard to prove to everyone that I was better than what they thought. That I would make it even if my past said I couldnt.
Then I got crazy.
Lost relationships.
Lost my family.
Moved away from home to live with a jerk.
I give it hell to have things the right way.
And then I give it hell to lose them.
I even had a great job.
I made at least 1000+ a month.
I had a year in school and I was done.
Now look at me.
I have nothing.
No job.
No Car.
No DL.
No friends.
I barely have my family.
I have Jim.
I live with him.
I walk everyday looking for a job.
No one will hire me.
I have a bad track record.
I just want a chance.
To turn this train wreck I call life around.
Whats said is I didnt toss all I had to the side for anything other than my bull headed-ness.
I worked so hard on my own and got everything I needed without anyone I made myself believe that I would never need anyone.
I found out the hard way I was dead wrong.
You do need people.
People you can love.
And trust.
More than that you need people who can also love and trust you.
I have that in one person.
In Jim.
But I miss my family.
My friends.
I have burned so many bridges so fast I cant even recall most of them.
I guess all I can do is put faith in God and myself. I have to do that before I can expect anyone to put faith in me.
And maybe I will be blessed in life.
I have to get out of where I live.
I need my own place.
Somewhere stressfree.