ill die tonight just cuz of u

[blackdarkeyes]

i want to cry becuz no matter if im happy or not someone always ends up hurt. i cant take it one more time. i want to cut and cry into my blood yet no ones around. no one is here to save me. no one is here to pickme up n help me. so i try to be my own someone but it doesnt look like its working. im trying my hardest at this point in time. but theres only so long before u fall back down and cant back up. and right now im at that point. and its not fair to the people who do care about me. im trying i really am. but i cant carry on any longer. i want to let u know none of this is any of u guys fault. it might seem like im blameing this on u people but im not. im actually yelling at myself for thinking that people can change. for actually giveing people more chances than they deserve. they dont even deserve two but im stupid n i give them way more than that. n i think that its mad stupid. im mad stupid. im sorry i needed to tell someone n whos better than myself? but now its time for me to depart for a lil while. have a nice life.

this is all bc of this one person-

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