nothing at all.
I don't trust anyone enough anymore...
i can't confide in anyone, least i look like I've lost my dignity. Dignity that i don't really have.
Everything is numb. I feel numb, the problems around me that should be putting me into depression and whatnot just don't seem to be there.
Because of indifference. Because of apathy. Because i don't care. I don't give shit.
Apathy. Which happen to be the thing that is totally the opposite of 'love'.
i guess that really means i have no love for the problems I'm enduring now..? I don't know...
But. Maybe I'm numb because it's a defense mechanism to not feel the pain, or the hurt. to push it all away.
Fear... or is it pride? It's always one or the other.
Fear, pride. Fear, pride. I don't know anymore.
i don't know...
God, i don't deserve your forgiveness.
Mike, i don't deserve forgiveness from you, either.
Not at this point, anyway. Maybe never.
Not until i can feel remorse again.
`black.cloud
i can't confide in anyone, least i look like I've lost my dignity. Dignity that i don't really have.
Everything is numb. I feel numb, the problems around me that should be putting me into depression and whatnot just don't seem to be there.
Because of indifference. Because of apathy. Because i don't care. I don't give shit.
Apathy. Which happen to be the thing that is totally the opposite of 'love'.
i guess that really means i have no love for the problems I'm enduring now..? I don't know...
But. Maybe I'm numb because it's a defense mechanism to not feel the pain, or the hurt. to push it all away.
Fear... or is it pride? It's always one or the other.
Fear, pride. Fear, pride. I don't know anymore.
i don't know...
God, i don't deserve your forgiveness.
Mike, i don't deserve forgiveness from you, either.
Not at this point, anyway. Maybe never.
Not until i can feel remorse again.
`black.cloud