Would you die for the lotus? I came from the dirt.
So.. I completly forgot why I chose blackcloudscene as the name for this journal. I knew part of it was b/c someone or another coined the term for the people that finally talked to me in 8th grade. We were all little goth freak kids &.. it was kind of dumb, but when your young its all good. (i don't know; i'm so positive now i think its stupid i used to be all woe is me & whatnot).
My dad gave me another box of old stuff to go through and in reading some lyrics i'd written out, i remembered CrazyTown. Now, i agree most of their songs sucked, but looking back on it there are a few that i'd now compare to rehab and still listen to. And it solved the question of BlackCloudScene.
Now people say I’m jinxed.
I got some kind of voodoo hex.
Life is so complex.
There’s no telling what can happen next.
Life on the edge,
Fuels the sickness in my head.
It imbeds the type of thoughts
That got a lot of brothers dead.
The smarter brother knows
To keep his foes close.
And I’m the type of brother
That’s smarter than most.
A cold hearted overdose
Of lyrical antidotes.
The cure to make sure
My karma can’t take me down.
Up to the same old tricks.
I wonder if I’ll stick around.
Is a penny really lucky
If you find it on the ground?
What’s the problem with this town?
I can’t figure it out.
My karma’s crashing down
In the form of a black cloud.
[CHORUS:]
I’ve got a little black cloud
That follows me.
Everywhere I go,
It takes over me.
[X2]
I’m sick.
I’ve got a real ill disposition.
My intentions are pure
But there’s a cure for my condition.
My decisions
Put me in the wrong positions.
Chasing pipe dreams
Of fame and recognition.
The Epic.
Not only a name,
A definition.
My game remains no matter the pain.
I stay the charmer.
The Don of Karma.
I navigate it like the Dalai Lama
I ain’t a saint.
But I’ve got Joi de vie
And I’m the one to blame
If the cloud rains on me.
I can’t complain about it
Or even let regret
Provoke the energy it takes
For me to get upset.
A bad boy since birth
So I can’t forget
What goes around
Comes around
And it ain’t got me yet.
I’ve gotten wise in my age
And tamed the threat of my rage.
I’ve got a lot to learn
And I’ve got money to spend.
To pretend is reaping more
Than sewing ever could mend.
Trade my torches for a dime
The pressure’s fading away now
Black cloud’s lifted for the light
The pressure’s fading away now.
A thousand cigarettes
Won’t change the way we feel.
The pressure’s fading now
Can you bare the thought of knowing truth?
Knowing truth.
I was rapping in the rain,
Hoping that my luck would change.
And if there’s any truth
To all those old sayings.
Cuz if I killed a spider,
Would my house catch on fire?
If I walked under a ladder
Would it matter?
I tend to laugh
When black cats cross my path.
Break mirrors in half
Just to test the aftermath
Now here comes rain.
I project my pain.
Trying to make sense
Of these crazy things.
I’m a diamond in the rough.
Could I suffer enough?
I’m getting high for a living,
Not giving a fuck.
These hard times got me stuck.
Stuck in a jam
I’m the monkey on your back
And the crack in the dam.
Disastrous
Took time to master this.
And the past
Is just a map to capture this.
In the darkness.
I’m forced to adapt to this.
I would change the past
If I could have one wish.
Punk rock, shell toes,
Horns and halos.
Wicked white wings and
And pointed tails.
Devil’s eyes and nine inch nails
Nocturnal renegades.
The eternal drug raid.
I go by the name of
Mr. Shifty switchblade.
Getting paid in the shade,
As lyrics ricochet,
Off the walls
From the ceiling to the floor,
Off the door
And down the hall.
I’m evil like Knievel
Kicking white trash.
Psycho cerebral, palsy, ballsy
Bad ass.
Dressed in black,
From the wrong side of the tracks.
Crazy Town.
Yo, we strike like deep impact.
[CHORUS:]
Why can’t you see?
I cannot feel ‘til you bring
Me down.
Dream lands of danger.
Darkside pleasures
Bad behavior.
Dream lands of danger.
Darkside pleasures
At their best.
My subconscience launches me
Into evil territory.
I’m surrounded by Voyeurs
And crack smoking lawyers.
No shame. Burnt lips,
Tripping on acid rain.
Legally insane, deranged,
Some people never change.
[CHORUS]
Nasty na na, ha, ha
Darkside marijuana.
Fueled of the drama.
Drifting on the darkside.
I’m the black eye bomber.
Do what I do on a darkside
Rendezvous.
Raising hell, out the shell.
Of fantasies I never tell.
Dispersin’ untamed perversion.
My bad brain’s working,
Circle jerking, rocking riddles,
Sex pistol, sexperts
Acting uncivil.
Dancing with the devil on the 13th floor
Non stop knocking on heaven’s door
Thinking faster flirting with disaster plastered
I’m your puppet master pushin’ proper data
Watch the city steal your soul as the drugs take control
And the problems of the world put your life on hold
You should have known by now that it just don’t stop
You like that rock hip-hop you make me grab my crotch
[CHORUS:]
I got a lollipop porn bitch
Dead on arrival
A hardcore sex bitch turned
Suicidal
All caught up now taking my chances playing my song
While the devil dances ‘round me beggin’ me to play along
Now over the years I’ve learned to love the pain
I’m what you call a ladykiller with the gift of game
Triple X true that you do dat dat
Let it ride bring it back over 24 tracks
We’re gonna rock the fuckin’ block tonight
We’re gonna rock that shit gonna make it right
Diggi, diggi damn right, we’s dynomite
So we can do this or you can do what you like
I grab the mic and make it mine
I grab the mic and make it hype
So we can do this, or you can do what you like
[CHORUS]
Riding on the 3rd rail, taking risks, life is risky
The “E” stands for Epic and the “S” stands for Shifty
So let the good times roll, there’s no controlling us
Walking on water and kicking up dust
The boisterous, causing panic in the land of lust
The shellshock lollipop crazy down to make your body rock
Sugar I love the way your body talks
Now, whoever said that sex was overrated?
Love leaves me devastated, life’s so fuckin’ complicated
Shifty say what, Epic’s a beat slut
And I got so many rhymes I can’t keep my mouth shut
[CHORUS]
And that's about all they did that was good.