A summer rain...
I've been...better. I'm doing okay...things are working out. I've almost considered going back to the dorms. But maybe I'm just chicken shit because every time I seem to go...I see Bella people in the common room and want to run in the other direction.
I actually had everything packed up. And when I was returning back to my room I noticed I lost something that is so important to me. I lost my Moony, I'm not able to sleep without him in my bed, I need to just cuddle and hold him to fall asleep. I was about to cry actually, but a third year pointed that I'd lost him a ways down the hall, so I went and got him and brought him and my other things back to my room. He's on my bed now. Safe and sound. I don't know what I'd do without him.
Hexed against everybody
I have been helping Remus with his work. He's returning to classes tomorrow so, he'll need me no longer... I worry that I'll lose touch with him, but I guess it's bound to happen. He'll return to having fun with my cousin and the other two.
I'll have to find some...people that won't mind my status. I know I have Miranda to talk to still...but I just *can't* talk to her...it's just...too much of a risk with her being so close to Walden. The only other person that's made any effort to talk to me is Alice, and she's busy as well. I can't tell Anda I'm sad...she'll just be big sistery. I miss Bella so much. I miss her because she was my best friend and my sister that was always there. Anda tried to be...but it was harder because she is out of the family. Bellatrix...I need you. I can't talk to Rodolphus even though I'd love to. I just...don't know who I can trust any more. I can't wait to get out of this hellhole and just...go.
/Hexed
I'll be testing the water out in the lake...still sticking to the shallow end for I can't swim just yet...but this will be the first time ever, I'll be putting more of my body in the lake...with the intention to swim. Gods...don't let me drown.
I actually had everything packed up. And when I was returning back to my room I noticed I lost something that is so important to me. I lost my Moony, I'm not able to sleep without him in my bed, I need to just cuddle and hold him to fall asleep. I was about to cry actually, but a third year pointed that I'd lost him a ways down the hall, so I went and got him and brought him and my other things back to my room. He's on my bed now. Safe and sound. I don't know what I'd do without him.
Hexed against everybody
I have been helping Remus with his work. He's returning to classes tomorrow so, he'll need me no longer... I worry that I'll lose touch with him, but I guess it's bound to happen. He'll return to having fun with my cousin and the other two.
I'll have to find some...people that won't mind my status. I know I have Miranda to talk to still...but I just *can't* talk to her...it's just...too much of a risk with her being so close to Walden. The only other person that's made any effort to talk to me is Alice, and she's busy as well. I can't tell Anda I'm sad...she'll just be big sistery. I miss Bella so much. I miss her because she was my best friend and my sister that was always there. Anda tried to be...but it was harder because she is out of the family. Bellatrix...I need you. I can't talk to Rodolphus even though I'd love to. I just...don't know who I can trust any more. I can't wait to get out of this hellhole and just...go.
/Hexed
I'll be testing the water out in the lake...still sticking to the shallow end for I can't swim just yet...but this will be the first time ever, I'll be putting more of my body in the lake...with the intention to swim. Gods...don't let me drown.