where do i go from here?
it's a saturday night. everyone around me seems to be having a party or going somewhere in their prettiest clothes... i'm at home, alone. i'm surrounded by the crap of my life, my cats and my mice, but even they are busy with each other and their activities. i've been having nightmares again and i'm feeling anxious. In all honesty, I'm tired of my life. It's uncertain and crazy, yet boring and predictable. i feel like i'm at a crossroads with little direction and little support. i feel very alone in the world right now... and all of me wishes that wasn't the case at all. i've also come to a decision - if i'm still "single" by this time next year, i will be adopting a child. i want to give my love away to someone who needs it.