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It's weird to think how to go about that this. But really, I guess I want to just set things right to the best of my abilities before I go off to college, and even if your response is "He doesn't deserve it."--well, I disabled my comments, so that makes it hard, but still, it's just the right thing to do. I'm sure what motivates this myself to be honest. Maybe discovering that I blackened someone's name by accident--saying that he cheated on his girlfriend when he didn't. Maybe it's after the Katherine stuff, and the mini hell I went through before I graduated.
Last summer, when stuff went down between Michael and I, I was very angry, and pretty much just wanted to get back at him any way I could, which meant repeating whatever I heard other people say, regardless of whether it was true or not. That continued on, due to my decaying mental state that came to a head in May and was fixed with proper medication, and which I was able to gain control over my anger.
I also said that Michael raped me. Except to be honest, the situation that occurred was very complicated, and calling it rape is the wrong way to explain what happened.
I just wanted to hurt him. And I regret that things went to the length he did. I mean, maybe Michael did wrong things, but that doesn't excuse me behaving poorly, you know? I didn't need to make a public deal of the whole thing and let the whole world know.
I guess that's all I have to say.
Last summer, when stuff went down between Michael and I, I was very angry, and pretty much just wanted to get back at him any way I could, which meant repeating whatever I heard other people say, regardless of whether it was true or not. That continued on, due to my decaying mental state that came to a head in May and was fixed with proper medication, and which I was able to gain control over my anger.
I also said that Michael raped me. Except to be honest, the situation that occurred was very complicated, and calling it rape is the wrong way to explain what happened.
I just wanted to hurt him. And I regret that things went to the length he did. I mean, maybe Michael did wrong things, but that doesn't excuse me behaving poorly, you know? I didn't need to make a public deal of the whole thing and let the whole world know.
I guess that's all I have to say.