self-indulgent whining
So, because I am broke and can't afford to go to the hairdresser's, I spent this morning bleaching my own hair. I know I used to do this all the time, but I guess I was always bad at it, because my hair basically looks like a leopard print pillowcase. I guess I'm going to be dyeing it a dark colour, because I don't have the time now to re-bleach the bad parts.
I skipped school yesterday because I was having mega anxiety about it. I realise I only made things worse but at this point I do not even care. I am so stressed out about everything and it's just not worth it. I have been trying so hard all semester for essentially no reward.
Yesterday I asked Jeff if we could go somewhere, and he said, "Where do you want to go?" and it wasn't so much that I wanted to go out, it's that I wanted to just go. As if getting out of the house would get me away from my life. Last night I dreamed about my chemistry lab.
I am in wanderlust mode. Every day I wish we could get in the car and just drive until we get someplace else, someplace new, where I don't have to feel stupid and useless and worried and under pressure all the time.
Laughter caught in pictures is one of my favourite things. And I love it when it's my own laughter.
I skipped school yesterday because I was having mega anxiety about it. I realise I only made things worse but at this point I do not even care. I am so stressed out about everything and it's just not worth it. I have been trying so hard all semester for essentially no reward.
Yesterday I asked Jeff if we could go somewhere, and he said, "Where do you want to go?" and it wasn't so much that I wanted to go out, it's that I wanted to just go. As if getting out of the house would get me away from my life. Last night I dreamed about my chemistry lab.
I am in wanderlust mode. Every day I wish we could get in the car and just drive until we get someplace else, someplace new, where I don't have to feel stupid and useless and worried and under pressure all the time.
Laughter caught in pictures is one of my favourite things. And I love it when it's my own laughter.