.and then there was today.
it's almost 2 in the morning and i can't sleep.
surprised? you shouldn't be. with all of the shit
that went down today, you wouldn't be sleeping
either.
i don't know who i can trust anymore. sometimes
i feel like i'm better off just keeping to myself.
people are full of themselves. they are selfish
and don't take the time to understand others. of
course there are a select few who do not belong in
that category. a select few. it's true what they say,
"in tragedy you'll find out who your true friends are."
i hear the low lifes are sticking together - that's good,
they deserve eachother and all of the bullshit they bring
into others lives.
mom has treatment tomorrow at 2pm. there is much to be done
before we leave. ryan is babysitting the kids for me. i
don't know what i would do without my 'select few' friends.
they are good to me and i love them dearly.
mom might have to start radiation soon. it's still up in the
air right now. there are many decisions to be made. and many
tasks to accomplish. she hasn't felt very well for about a
month now. i'm terribly afraid that something is going to
happen alot sooner than we think. i'm thankful for everyday
that i get to spend with her, but things just aren't the same.
she hasn't felt like herself in quite some time. i'm afraid that
i'm going to wake up one of these mornings and she is going to be
gone. if that day ever comes, and God forbid that it ever does, but if it does there will be no words or actions that anyone could
do or say to makes things right. because no one i know can truly
understand what it feels like to be in my shoes.
i can go through every single emotion in one day. i go days without
a good nights sleep - sometimes it gets to that point where you feel like you're going insane. i'd give anything to turn my mind off and not think of anything or anyone just for one night.
i'm threw with the small talk - don't bother. i'll be alright.
surprised? you shouldn't be. with all of the shit
that went down today, you wouldn't be sleeping
either.
i don't know who i can trust anymore. sometimes
i feel like i'm better off just keeping to myself.
people are full of themselves. they are selfish
and don't take the time to understand others. of
course there are a select few who do not belong in
that category. a select few. it's true what they say,
"in tragedy you'll find out who your true friends are."
i hear the low lifes are sticking together - that's good,
they deserve eachother and all of the bullshit they bring
into others lives.
mom has treatment tomorrow at 2pm. there is much to be done
before we leave. ryan is babysitting the kids for me. i
don't know what i would do without my 'select few' friends.
they are good to me and i love them dearly.
mom might have to start radiation soon. it's still up in the
air right now. there are many decisions to be made. and many
tasks to accomplish. she hasn't felt very well for about a
month now. i'm terribly afraid that something is going to
happen alot sooner than we think. i'm thankful for everyday
that i get to spend with her, but things just aren't the same.
she hasn't felt like herself in quite some time. i'm afraid that
i'm going to wake up one of these mornings and she is going to be
gone. if that day ever comes, and God forbid that it ever does, but if it does there will be no words or actions that anyone could
do or say to makes things right. because no one i know can truly
understand what it feels like to be in my shoes.
i can go through every single emotion in one day. i go days without
a good nights sleep - sometimes it gets to that point where you feel like you're going insane. i'd give anything to turn my mind off and not think of anything or anyone just for one night.
i'm threw with the small talk - don't bother. i'll be alright.