failure's not flattering

[blackberrry]

. do you ever just wanna run away? and never look back. its so hard to stay strong when everything around is brining you down. just dont know who to turn to, or who to count on. life seems impossible. people say it will get better, just keep your head up, but that gets old after a while. what if it never gets better? what if it stays like this? why doesn't it just get better now? do i really deserve this? people say you chose how your life goes on. but is it really my fault that no one likes me? that no one wants to try and care? that im not smart enough? and that im not fast enough? and that im just not good enough to be what i want to be. seems like the sun will never come out, and everything is just too hard. just wanna run away to another place. far far away and start a brand new day. new life, fresh start. a chance to start over. thats all i want...no, that's all i need

i just want to be something