i don't know what else to do, i can't go on not loving you...
well for every good day, i gutta pay by havin like 500 bad days. and so it begins once again :\...school blew fuckin chunks. im sick of tryin to be nice to people who just don't give a shit and are mean anyway.
almost lost my fuckin cell phone # thanks to the madre. and then practice. oh boy oh boy.
first off i went with mic, cuz paige left and wasn't comin home or w/e. so ya im sittin at the comp waitin, and i see some car drive around my circle like 5 times, wickedly slow. soooo creepy. then the last time they stop at my house. so im sorta walkin out to the car, but im not sure if it's mic or not. then she opens her window and starts laughin. fuckin creep. so i guess she's officially my stalker now. haha whata tool. stalk someone worth stalking!!!!! creep
anyway. so of course i was at practice like an hour early. paige and samm show up like 5 minutes after me. and we're like all shootin around and stuff and like workin on stuff. so ya, we stopped like maybe 2 minutes before reno walks in, cuz like jv was usin the whole floor and she was talkin to them and we dind't want to interupt or anything. so yea,
we're in the room and reno's sayin how we need to practice individual stuff to. and how he saw me and paige and samm there, and we were just talkin and not practicing anything. whcih sucks ass cuz people probably think that we're lazy now, even though we just stopped to let jv have their practice. ugh
plus im like a fuckin retard, and can't get soem plays, so i doubt ill be startin or anything much longer.
im just sick of it all...im sick of waitin for good to come or w/e people always say. bull shit! it ain't happenening. and it really never does. well the summer wasn't bad, but now sucks. no use living in the past. i hate how you can go from being friends with someone to nothng. like hello! friends hang out and shit, but no. nothingness. that's gay and errrr sucks ass. like prolly won't even see them all fuckni vacation which blows, cuz it's not like they're around all the time. so ya fuck.
i just dunno how much longer i can do this. like ugh. just one fuckin thing. that i could maybe stay happy about for a while!! why can't that just fuckin happen? errrrrrrr...this blows so fuckin bad too. i feel soooo much like a dork. like so different. waht's the word? i feel like such a misfit. like i don't belong. and i won't wherever i go. ugh, this is the worst feeling ever. :( fucking shoot me now. seriously though, im like so depressing im wondering how people even talkt o me. or even want to. ugh
GAME AT 7 AT TANTASQUA TOMORROW
oh and gutta say, i fuckin love gwen stefani, and her new song rich girl, and i want her cd so fuckin bad. that'd be nice
almost lost my fuckin cell phone # thanks to the madre. and then practice. oh boy oh boy.
first off i went with mic, cuz paige left and wasn't comin home or w/e. so ya im sittin at the comp waitin, and i see some car drive around my circle like 5 times, wickedly slow. soooo creepy. then the last time they stop at my house. so im sorta walkin out to the car, but im not sure if it's mic or not. then she opens her window and starts laughin. fuckin creep. so i guess she's officially my stalker now. haha whata tool. stalk someone worth stalking!!!!! creep
anyway. so of course i was at practice like an hour early. paige and samm show up like 5 minutes after me. and we're like all shootin around and stuff and like workin on stuff. so ya, we stopped like maybe 2 minutes before reno walks in, cuz like jv was usin the whole floor and she was talkin to them and we dind't want to interupt or anything. so yea,
we're in the room and reno's sayin how we need to practice individual stuff to. and how he saw me and paige and samm there, and we were just talkin and not practicing anything. whcih sucks ass cuz people probably think that we're lazy now, even though we just stopped to let jv have their practice. ugh
plus im like a fuckin retard, and can't get soem plays, so i doubt ill be startin or anything much longer.
im just sick of it all...im sick of waitin for good to come or w/e people always say. bull shit! it ain't happenening. and it really never does. well the summer wasn't bad, but now sucks. no use living in the past. i hate how you can go from being friends with someone to nothng. like hello! friends hang out and shit, but no. nothingness. that's gay and errrr sucks ass. like prolly won't even see them all fuckni vacation which blows, cuz it's not like they're around all the time. so ya fuck.
i just dunno how much longer i can do this. like ugh. just one fuckin thing. that i could maybe stay happy about for a while!! why can't that just fuckin happen? errrrrrrr...this blows so fuckin bad too. i feel soooo much like a dork. like so different. waht's the word? i feel like such a misfit. like i don't belong. and i won't wherever i go. ugh, this is the worst feeling ever. :( fucking shoot me now. seriously though, im like so depressing im wondering how people even talkt o me. or even want to. ugh
GAME AT 7 AT TANTASQUA TOMORROW
oh and gutta say, i fuckin love gwen stefani, and her new song rich girl, and i want her cd so fuckin bad. that'd be nice