everythin means nothing...
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well a shit day. school was gay as usual cept now in typin since the comps don't work, we get to watch movies with mrs. debbs class the whole period until they work again. pretty sweet. cept we watched garfield today and that nasty ass cat is ass ugly and sooooooo fake it's annoying.
ok so practice...what can i say about it? wasn't the best. i felt like shit. reno said i wasn't fast enough doin somethin..sorry but i can't get much faster, specially since i think i broke my fuckin toe. now i kinda feel like i suck at ball. maybe not suck, but i don't feel like i have what it takes to be a good player, good enough anyway. i dunno, i feel like im trying my hardest, and runnin my fastest, but it doesn't seem to be good enough, and i don't think i have enough confidence to be good. :( i really really wanna be too... i guess im too emotional, i shouldn't take what he says to heart or whatever, but i can't help it. i don't really respond well to alot of critisism. specially if it's like 'your'e not fast enough there, gotta be quicker' . i really can't be, im goin as fast as i can move. :(
i feel like a loser, so bad. i feel like i have no friends. mic like hates me it seems, i neveer even get to see or talk to kayla and jenna anymore cuz we don't have any classes together, and we don't run together anymore. those are/were my best friends, and now i feel like i have nothing. i feel alone, sad, lost, hopeless, unhappy, and just like empty. i need somethin to fill the emptiness...that sounds so gay, but for real i do. i don't know how else to say it. :(
I WANNA RUNAWAY!!!!
waitin, and hopin :\
well a shit day. school was gay as usual cept now in typin since the comps don't work, we get to watch movies with mrs. debbs class the whole period until they work again. pretty sweet. cept we watched garfield today and that nasty ass cat is ass ugly and sooooooo fake it's annoying.
ok so practice...what can i say about it? wasn't the best. i felt like shit. reno said i wasn't fast enough doin somethin..sorry but i can't get much faster, specially since i think i broke my fuckin toe. now i kinda feel like i suck at ball. maybe not suck, but i don't feel like i have what it takes to be a good player, good enough anyway. i dunno, i feel like im trying my hardest, and runnin my fastest, but it doesn't seem to be good enough, and i don't think i have enough confidence to be good. :( i really really wanna be too... i guess im too emotional, i shouldn't take what he says to heart or whatever, but i can't help it. i don't really respond well to alot of critisism. specially if it's like 'your'e not fast enough there, gotta be quicker' . i really can't be, im goin as fast as i can move. :(
i feel like a loser, so bad. i feel like i have no friends. mic like hates me it seems, i neveer even get to see or talk to kayla and jenna anymore cuz we don't have any classes together, and we don't run together anymore. those are/were my best friends, and now i feel like i have nothing. i feel alone, sad, lost, hopeless, unhappy, and just like empty. i need somethin to fill the emptiness...that sounds so gay, but for real i do. i don't know how else to say it. :(
I WANNA RUNAWAY!!!!
waitin, and hopin :\