sunday venting. . .
THIS IS WHAT PEOPLE CALL VENTING:
I haven't updated in a pretty long time. I just like to read other peoples sappy emotional problems every now and then, and not share my over-exaggerated small conflicts. This isn't about my love life, because that is going phenomenal. I've never been happier with another person. Love is splended. Its not about my family, well. .. it could be: My brother is a Jesus Freak straight of the movie Saved!, and tries to call himself a brother, when all he does is judge me, and those who i hang out with. He doesn't understand that those weirdo druggy losers that come to the shows that im at are in no way affiliated with me. Im out of whatever phase i was in a year ago, and i wish people would stop bringing that shit back. If I believed that I could go the rest of my life without drinking an alcoholic beverage, I'd probably just become Straight-Edge. But, I love Coca-Cola and hate dancing. So it's not for me.
Lately Everyone has been thinking about colleges, and future plans. I have barely any, and people consider me the person that will be "most likely to succeed". HOW? Sure, im straight forward and brutally honest to people, but that is far from being successful. All I do is play guitar and sit here in this motherfucking chair and observe everything that I wish I was, and what the world was. This election is fucking ridiculous. If Kerry loses, hes gonna hire hundreds of lawyers to protest the election. My family is hardcore republican, and I am slightly republican also, just because Kerry is an asshole, and my brother worked out with Bush and said that he's a really nice guy.
Few of the people that I am surrounded with are great. I've seen myself trusting a select few more and more. Not that "if i were drunk, youd be there to makes sure i dont do anything stupid" -trust. But the kind of trust that you know those people would do more for you than others. And it's reassuring to have them as friends. I don't have to worry about them, and thats relieving. So thanks to those few, im pretty sure you know who you are.
Im gona go play guitar now. later.