The Cure show was great...

[blackark]

until i got too intoxicated.
A had never really seen me in my cups and
i could tell that it upset her.
that's reason enough - no more booze.
i feel like i've waited my whole life to meet this person,
i'm not gonna fuck it up over some dumb shit like booze.
i know i've said things like this before, but REALLY...
when i've talked about quitting before,
it's mainly been selfish.
i'll admit, i'm an asshole,
and even tho friends have been scared for me in the past-
tho never as scared as i have been-
i never thought of drinking too much as
hurting anyone but myself.
i don't hate myself,
but i can stand hurting myself.

i can't stand hurting A.

i don't think it's even going to be tough.

booze rarely calls to me,
i just don't know when to stop at times.

there's an easy way to fix that.

p.s. The Rapture should never have to play in the daytime.
and yes, i danced thru their entire set.