Know how I know that I'm SOMEWHAT OCD? Friend and I were discussing hang-ups one afternoon and she told me that she used to count the number of a's, b's, c's; so on and so forth that were in each person's sentences. If there was an uneven amount of a certain letter, she would add the letters that were uneven onto the end of the sentence. To acheive balance, I presume. Take, the sentence: did I tell you fester had puppies? She'd do the math in her head like so: 3 d's, 4 e's, etc, etc. Since there are 3 d's, she'd add an extra one onto the ending of the sentence. Mad-wacked! I then told her of a similar struggle I'd been wrestling with. When I'm conversing with someone, I have a subconcious tendency to time how long they've been speaking. Even if they are not finished, I intercede, b/c 5.4 minutes and 4 seconds is 4 over the limit. All I can conclude is that maybe I'm seeking to achieve balance in an area of my life. Perhaps it is one that I am not able to fix. So by controlling the conversation, I'm able to gain that upperhand. Does that make sense? It's hard for me to express my thoughts sometimes. I think of myself as being idiot sevant. Not genius; here's a difference. I think genius's have a firmer grip on the knowlegde that floats about in their gray matter. sevant's, on the other hand, are unable to manage and organize the knowledge they are equipped with. Thus making them socially retarded; though not all ARE.
Let me know what you are without, and I'll send yus someping foyo hacienda..
omg that is so like me (idiot sevant) . its like i have all of the knowledge in my head but i cant write shit ut howit needs to be nor can i say it. so it seems like i am fucking dumb but im not. its all just stuck in my fucking head...anyway i dont really need anyhting fo rmy house really. im gonna see if my mom can make me a couch cover tho as my couch is looking pretty shitty. thanks for the thought tho. maybe a new book would be nice(emma goldman*hint hint*). yeah that have to have an even amount of letters is wack. it would drive me eben more insane. shit.god us humans are strange. hehe love ya sis-xoxoxoxJ.
Take, the sentence: did I tell you fester had puppies?
She'd do the math in her head like so: 3 d's, 4 e's, etc, etc. Since there are 3 d's, she'd add an extra one onto the ending of the sentence. Mad-wacked!
I then told her of a similar struggle I'd been wrestling with. When I'm conversing with someone, I have a subconcious tendency to time how long they've been speaking. Even if they are not finished, I intercede, b/c 5.4 minutes and 4 seconds is 4 over the limit. All I can conclude is that maybe I'm seeking to achieve balance in an area of my life. Perhaps it is one that I am not able to fix. So by controlling the conversation, I'm able to gain that upperhand. Does that make sense? It's hard for me to express my thoughts sometimes.
I think of myself as being idiot sevant. Not genius; here's a difference. I think genius's have a firmer grip on the knowlegde that floats about in their gray matter. sevant's, on the other hand, are unable to manage and organize the knowledge they are equipped with. Thus making them socially retarded; though not all ARE.
Let me know what you are without, and I'll send yus someping foyo hacienda..
~~~BAT~~~
Love always and forevermore...
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