since it's been a while...
March 23
today i bleed... tomorrow i will die, tonight i will drink.
hold me, i'm falling apart,
what seems so simple for you is so complicated for me....
-later that day-
i should eat, my body feels hunger but i fear that if i consume my body may refuse and thus for become a wasted effort.
more...
meaningless disgust...
vibrant shades of vomit grace the floor around me.
who are you? just the same who am i
discourage lost hope; bind me to the truth, the reason i am here
March 3
nothing is ever enought and whats enough isnt good enough. where should i go from here? theres nowhere left to run to; on the otherside. im stuck on the inside. you wont find me even in the light. im lost beyond the edge of this reality. i see you; see you when your alone. begging on your knees to a god; a man that cant be seen. is there a reason why?
you haunt the dreams i havent drempt; im too afraid to dream without you here beside me. my body burns with desire; extinguished by your cold. you love me; i was once told. do you still and is it real? how can you prove something i cant hold? in a world where nothing is real and material fades; memories blur...
ill still be standing here in vulnerable relase. save me from everything i hate. if you only coul, i know you never would. because that would be too much to ask. i dont blame you. i couldnt even save me from myself.
-krystin-
i havent seen the sun today; im afraid of the light. afraid i might burn fray and wither away. the night holds me close, wrapped in LSD. my imagination carries me away, today i halusinated, i thought you were here in my arms. i swore i felt your touch, your skin meshed and oozed with mine. we dripped to the floor and i slipped upon the mess we made of ourselves. i felt my bones break as i stomped and splashed our puddle. we flew across the room; tears pounded down my face. we are nothing of what i thought we were, we never were. we could have been so much more. summing up into so much less...
-krystin-
today i bleed... tomorrow i will die, tonight i will drink.
hold me, i'm falling apart,
what seems so simple for you is so complicated for me....
-later that day-
i should eat, my body feels hunger but i fear that if i consume my body may refuse and thus for become a wasted effort.
more...
meaningless disgust...
vibrant shades of vomit grace the floor around me.
who are you? just the same who am i
discourage lost hope; bind me to the truth, the reason i am here
March 3
nothing is ever enought and whats enough isnt good enough. where should i go from here? theres nowhere left to run to; on the otherside. im stuck on the inside. you wont find me even in the light. im lost beyond the edge of this reality. i see you; see you when your alone. begging on your knees to a god; a man that cant be seen. is there a reason why?
you haunt the dreams i havent drempt; im too afraid to dream without you here beside me. my body burns with desire; extinguished by your cold. you love me; i was once told. do you still and is it real? how can you prove something i cant hold? in a world where nothing is real and material fades; memories blur...
ill still be standing here in vulnerable relase. save me from everything i hate. if you only coul, i know you never would. because that would be too much to ask. i dont blame you. i couldnt even save me from myself.
-krystin-
i havent seen the sun today; im afraid of the light. afraid i might burn fray and wither away. the night holds me close, wrapped in LSD. my imagination carries me away, today i halusinated, i thought you were here in my arms. i swore i felt your touch, your skin meshed and oozed with mine. we dripped to the floor and i slipped upon the mess we made of ourselves. i felt my bones break as i stomped and splashed our puddle. we flew across the room; tears pounded down my face. we are nothing of what i thought we were, we never were. we could have been so much more. summing up into so much less...
-krystin-