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"Last night I dreamt
That Somebody loved me
No hope no harm
just another false alarm"
Do moments move past you and feel like forever, and shouldnt you be laughing to? take a look at how they found you, take a look at what they've done to you now... sullen and haunted once febbishly forgotten? My dad left for iraq on thursday... he wont be back for 6months to a year... -sigh- so now i live on my own till i move in with my brother... oh yaye....
living is complicated
lying is release
breathing is quickening
honesty is sacraficing
and nothing is what it seems
breath-sleep-die..
and yet i relentlessly ask why...
pure enjoyment for the weak of heart is falling in love
and not realizing when it dies...
have you ever been in love with something that died?
and cried yourself to sleep as quiet winds brought you dreams of hopless desrire?
hold me close...
your more than the world to me...
I sit alone in a cafe during the bright time of the endless day...
no ones there there is no party to find...
just me alone...
thinking and wondering why I sometimes feel...
"if he stops breathing will i stop too"
in your eyes i see the darkness that torments you and in you head where it hides...
id give you my hand if you reach out and grab it, lets walk away from this hell...
i couldnt fall asleep last night...
when you sleep alone for so long and someone comes along to fill the cold space next to you...
you tend to grow fond of them laying there sleeping so sound with ryhthmic breathing...
and when their not there...
a piece of you feels like its missing...
i tossed and turned but my usual places of comfort were gone and seemed lost... no where to be found...
i passed out only from tiresome wonder and ridged movements around 1:30 am
when i woke i found my love to have called just an hour and a half after i relentlessly closed my eyes
saddened and lathargic... i rised my faceand wiped the sleep from my stilled redden eyes
my stomach turned tight and pinched my insides as the sun rose and shinned through the dim blinds on foggy window panes
Emily comforted me and the tv brought me only lies of deception...
i rambled on a conversation for sometime with the black eletric box...
a pointless contraption to me i dare say...
the day seems done and yet it has only begun... nothing to do but sit and wait for you
though there are the distactions to keep my mind busy...
i am not boaring... i do have places to go and people to see and such
so until i feel like wrting in this thing in which i know no one reads... or could careless about reading i am off to do the usual until the unusual can be done :)
"we live as gods of night"
Krystin-
That Somebody loved me
No hope no harm
just another false alarm"
Do moments move past you and feel like forever, and shouldnt you be laughing to? take a look at how they found you, take a look at what they've done to you now... sullen and haunted once febbishly forgotten? My dad left for iraq on thursday... he wont be back for 6months to a year... -sigh- so now i live on my own till i move in with my brother... oh yaye....
living is complicated
lying is release
breathing is quickening
honesty is sacraficing
and nothing is what it seems
breath-sleep-die..
and yet i relentlessly ask why...
pure enjoyment for the weak of heart is falling in love
and not realizing when it dies...
have you ever been in love with something that died?
and cried yourself to sleep as quiet winds brought you dreams of hopless desrire?
hold me close...
your more than the world to me...
I sit alone in a cafe during the bright time of the endless day...
no ones there there is no party to find...
just me alone...
thinking and wondering why I sometimes feel...
"if he stops breathing will i stop too"
in your eyes i see the darkness that torments you and in you head where it hides...
id give you my hand if you reach out and grab it, lets walk away from this hell...
i couldnt fall asleep last night...
when you sleep alone for so long and someone comes along to fill the cold space next to you...
you tend to grow fond of them laying there sleeping so sound with ryhthmic breathing...
and when their not there...
a piece of you feels like its missing...
i tossed and turned but my usual places of comfort were gone and seemed lost... no where to be found...
i passed out only from tiresome wonder and ridged movements around 1:30 am
when i woke i found my love to have called just an hour and a half after i relentlessly closed my eyes
saddened and lathargic... i rised my faceand wiped the sleep from my stilled redden eyes
my stomach turned tight and pinched my insides as the sun rose and shinned through the dim blinds on foggy window panes
Emily comforted me and the tv brought me only lies of deception...
i rambled on a conversation for sometime with the black eletric box...
a pointless contraption to me i dare say...
the day seems done and yet it has only begun... nothing to do but sit and wait for you
though there are the distactions to keep my mind busy...
i am not boaring... i do have places to go and people to see and such
so until i feel like wrting in this thing in which i know no one reads... or could careless about reading i am off to do the usual until the unusual can be done :)
"we live as gods of night"
Krystin-