its been a while hasn't it? ;p
my body tingles, the thoughts of what has come to pass is decaying inside of me and tearing the flesh of my skin; from inside to out, these memories are intolerable, and bringing me down... a deafening screaming fills my lungs with despair. lost hope and a feeling of bewilderment is found pouring out of my eyes, so bleak in their own insane torture. burning from candle lit corners, bleeding crimson ribbons and speaking without words or a conscious thought of their own. it has been thought to be my own causing in this endless time of need that has never seemed to begin or end... though the nights are passing quickly and the days are only a blur of excitment that ceases as the burning ball behind lit clouds fades away under the distant line that seems to move further from me as i draw myself closer, so ever running from me? or is it not me in which it turns its back on in a hurried run and leap of desolation. a horizon worth remembering, because the memory may fade when my life begins to change...but what change is to come? is there any change that could rip me apart the way this already has? A love of speachless words that enthralls me to know more...but what is this that dose not already fill my mind? there is much that is not known to me but blissfulness is a pure enjoyment for the weak of heartand strong constantly growing strength. will to move forward in this charade of thoughtless actions, filling...oh! ever so filling, the emotions that pour out of me. all will arise in the coming of time that cannot be measured and dose not exist...though where will we be when all this takes place in an unrecorded history? it cant be said because it is not known to me or any of whom i knw, in such a way it sickens me and i knw it will be so soon when it brings death unpon my already dying body...ever so sweet were the words you spoke to me, but where have those words gone? defusing in the ever so twisting silent icy wind that has known of no home and finds itself wrapping its edges aroung my shivering body, thats slowly failing, druken, so turned towards what is next.. this philosophy i lead my life in has found its limits in other peoples biasis. your thoughts cannot be changed but i am willful in finding a way to make you think in ways i know you have not yet thought of thinking in...you have it or you dont. what will it take for you to admit you were wrong? well lets just say i got what i wanted... ~heart~ kris