I Heart Tiny Teddys.
But really this journal entry is just an excuse to talk about Felix.
GAaaw he such a cutie. I really really like him. More so than ive ever liked anyone before. I have no doubts whatsoever. Im just scared that hes eventually going to learn the real me and run a mile. Maybe this is how chelcea felt when she was with Jeremy. Its fantastic being with a perfect guy. But at the same time its impossible. You freak out that there are prettier, smarter, funnier girls out there that meet up to his qualities a hell of a lot better than you do. I know felix has girls chasing him. And I know that there are a couple of boys after me i guess, but its not the same. It seems like the ball is entirely in his court and its up to him to swing this blossoming relationship into a fully fledged boyfriend/girlfriend relationship but hes taking his time and its killing me! Half of me thinks that the reason this relaionship is taking so long to get off the ground is because hes trying to be a gentlemen and take things slow, whilst the other half of me is thinking that hes waiting because hes not quite sure, that hes summing out the rest of the offers before he finally settle for one. Either or, i throughly dislike being in this situation especially with him and I gone for the 2 week holiday. Who knows what he is going to be getting up to. I suppose i know that sam and nick will look out for me. They would definately tell me if Felix got up to something these holidays, and warn me. But that essentialy doesnt matter at all... i ive dug myself in too deeply already, ive put myself out there for him. I think im defiantely going to hold back on the txts to him for a while. He just doesnt respond at all the way hes supposed to! GODDAMN IT.
GAaaw he such a cutie. I really really like him. More so than ive ever liked anyone before. I have no doubts whatsoever. Im just scared that hes eventually going to learn the real me and run a mile. Maybe this is how chelcea felt when she was with Jeremy. Its fantastic being with a perfect guy. But at the same time its impossible. You freak out that there are prettier, smarter, funnier girls out there that meet up to his qualities a hell of a lot better than you do. I know felix has girls chasing him. And I know that there are a couple of boys after me i guess, but its not the same. It seems like the ball is entirely in his court and its up to him to swing this blossoming relationship into a fully fledged boyfriend/girlfriend relationship but hes taking his time and its killing me! Half of me thinks that the reason this relaionship is taking so long to get off the ground is because hes trying to be a gentlemen and take things slow, whilst the other half of me is thinking that hes waiting because hes not quite sure, that hes summing out the rest of the offers before he finally settle for one. Either or, i throughly dislike being in this situation especially with him and I gone for the 2 week holiday. Who knows what he is going to be getting up to. I suppose i know that sam and nick will look out for me. They would definately tell me if Felix got up to something these holidays, and warn me. But that essentialy doesnt matter at all... i ive dug myself in too deeply already, ive put myself out there for him. I think im defiantely going to hold back on the txts to him for a while. He just doesnt respond at all the way hes supposed to! GODDAMN IT.