I just don't know
Ok its like 1:15 or sumthing and I just can't sleep. So many things have just happened at once and it i just don't know what to do. Someone I knew just died in a car accident and that just turned everything upside down. Then reality decided to add in an extra slap to the face by hitting me with the truth. The fact that I knew it was coming with this person just didn't help. In fact i think once they started saying what they did it was just worse. And then while I'm still awake like this a friend of mine found out something that really upset and hurt her so I snuck out and went to talk to her about it. When I left to come back home a confrontation was about to happen and I really do hope things turn out ok for her because she doesn't need nething bad in her life. She works so hard and deserves to be happy. I don't know if what I do everyday is just not worthy or what, but I always seem to get so close to happiness and then it all crashes down and falls apart. This time though I'm afraid it hurt worse than it ever could have any other time. I feel like I've lost someone, but I really want her to be happy with her life and I really hope that things go the way she wants them to.I do have to say though that I don't think neone's ever made me cry the way I did when she told me the truth........I just really don't know anymore.