stupid girl
I really need help. A shrink, seriously. I always manage to think the worst, even when I dont want to. I need a brain transplant. I think that would really do wonders for me.
There were some...things out that made me think that my boyfriend was snorting cocaine..or whatever else is white and powdery. I found little baggies that had white stuff in them, straws with white powder residue, a razor blade, and a glass mirror with white stuff on it.
Now what kind of mental picture does that give you? I waited til he got home and confronted him about it, he got REALLY mad told me it was none of my buissness whose it was and to leave. I asked him if it was his, he said it was none of my buissness. At that point I got really upset started crying and and yelling at him, cuz I thought if he was getting that mad, it must have been cuz if it wasnt why would he get mad?
He knows my policy on drugs, how much I look down on them and the people who do them, that if he ever did do something liek that I would leave him immediately, it would all be over, no questions asked.
Turns out the other night some people were over and had laid some out on the mirror and put it out of site. Hilary found it and pulled everyone outside and started jumping on everyone's ass. Nobody would admit to whose it was, so he made everyone leave, but apparently they were drunka nd didnt do a very good job of cleaning it up. I found straws with residue in them on the floor, the desk, the chair, the mirror on the desk, the razor blade on top the tv, and little baggies with white residue laying on the floor. I had no idea what to think. And of course I overreacted. I dont think I did that bad, I never really said "I know it was yours" I asked him whose it was if it was his, and demanded to know whose it was. Kendal assured me that it wasnt Hilarys, and they told me what had been going on.
This is why I dont want hilary around these people. They are nothing but trash on the sidewalk and he is better than all of them. I just want him to grow up, quit smoking get a job and a degree, so we can start a life for heaven's sake. Maybe if we just left this area, I could get him away from all those people and things would be different. This town is nothing but drugs. Nothing but losers. There is nowhere to go, no way to do anything with your life here except waste it away. I hate this town and everyone in it. I need a life, I need a purpose in life, I need more friends. I am just so depressed.
There were some...things out that made me think that my boyfriend was snorting cocaine..or whatever else is white and powdery. I found little baggies that had white stuff in them, straws with white powder residue, a razor blade, and a glass mirror with white stuff on it.
Now what kind of mental picture does that give you? I waited til he got home and confronted him about it, he got REALLY mad told me it was none of my buissness whose it was and to leave. I asked him if it was his, he said it was none of my buissness. At that point I got really upset started crying and and yelling at him, cuz I thought if he was getting that mad, it must have been cuz if it wasnt why would he get mad?
He knows my policy on drugs, how much I look down on them and the people who do them, that if he ever did do something liek that I would leave him immediately, it would all be over, no questions asked.
Turns out the other night some people were over and had laid some out on the mirror and put it out of site. Hilary found it and pulled everyone outside and started jumping on everyone's ass. Nobody would admit to whose it was, so he made everyone leave, but apparently they were drunka nd didnt do a very good job of cleaning it up. I found straws with residue in them on the floor, the desk, the chair, the mirror on the desk, the razor blade on top the tv, and little baggies with white residue laying on the floor. I had no idea what to think. And of course I overreacted. I dont think I did that bad, I never really said "I know it was yours" I asked him whose it was if it was his, and demanded to know whose it was. Kendal assured me that it wasnt Hilarys, and they told me what had been going on.
This is why I dont want hilary around these people. They are nothing but trash on the sidewalk and he is better than all of them. I just want him to grow up, quit smoking get a job and a degree, so we can start a life for heaven's sake. Maybe if we just left this area, I could get him away from all those people and things would be different. This town is nothing but drugs. Nothing but losers. There is nowhere to go, no way to do anything with your life here except waste it away. I hate this town and everyone in it. I need a life, I need a purpose in life, I need more friends. I am just so depressed.