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Wowzah...in a couple hours, my mom'll be technically 40 years young; she does not look forty.
Been trying to write something, but it just isn't working...sometimes I have wondered what could of happened, if she hadn't got pregnant with me. While I watched Saved a second time today, this time with her; she hadn't seen it, I asked if I ruined her life or not; she said no, as she always does. I've always wished she had never gotten involved with my father...she was 16, he was in his 20's; don't remember his actual age, don't really fucking care. they grew pot, they sold drugs, they used drugs, he's been in a mental institution more than once...I wish her life had turned out fucking better than it did. she quit high school, because of fucking him; pun may or may not be intended. She never finished college, she probably could of, if it weren't for me.
Am I really worth, what her life became...
Been trying to write something, but it just isn't working...sometimes I have wondered what could of happened, if she hadn't got pregnant with me. While I watched Saved a second time today, this time with her; she hadn't seen it, I asked if I ruined her life or not; she said no, as she always does. I've always wished she had never gotten involved with my father...she was 16, he was in his 20's; don't remember his actual age, don't really fucking care. they grew pot, they sold drugs, they used drugs, he's been in a mental institution more than once...I wish her life had turned out fucking better than it did. she quit high school, because of fucking him; pun may or may not be intended. She never finished college, she probably could of, if it weren't for me.
Am I really worth, what her life became...