i feel very very alone...like i have nobody 2 talk 2
i only want certain ppl 2 read this...actually nvm i dont kno y im bothering with that statement bc i dont think anybody reads this anymore...i dont really care tho...um anyway
yeah i have nobody 2 talk 2...granted it is 12:33...and yeah i just feel really alone...
i feel really distant from my boyfriend 4 like this whole week...like i have talked 2 him but i still feel like i cant reach him...like if were 2 hug him i wouldnt b able 2 hold onto him bc he always has 2 go and i HATE it...i kno he's busy and i knew it was gonna b like this but i need him a lot more than i think...and it really gets 2 me when i dont get 2 see him everyday..and its just gonna get worse with his new job...then i really wont get 2 see him...he swears i will but realistically i kno i wont...and im really happy 4 him and his new job but there prolly wont b netime 4 me cept sundays...i guess ill just hafta deal with it and quit bein so damn needy...but i cant help it...
i never talk 2 my best friend anymore...i dont feel like she's interested in anything i have 2 say...she says all i talk about is him...which of course i would say isnt true and of course she would say yes it is...i think thats all she hears is when i say sumthin bout him...i dont want 2 argue with her tho...i feel really detached from her 2...
i dunno what my problem is...this week started out bad...i didnt get 2 see him on monday..i knew i wouldnt...then tuesday wasnt very nice...i mean it was but it wasnt...didnt get 2 see him yesterday...behind in like 3 of my classes...i have NO money whatsoever...and i prolly wont work until the summer...just cuz my parents wont let me...im sick of school...sick of swimming...
i need a vacation...like a permanent one...school has come 2 feel like a waste of time...yes i kno why im in there...i just hate it...like seriously i am ready 2 move on...2 what im not 100% sure...but still...
i dunno what my problem is...but i kno i cant sleep...and i have nobody 2 talk 2...so here i am...
i have been so moody 4 like the past 2 weeks...granted i had my period last week but i shouldnt b moody now...like ill get irritated bc EVERYBODY picks at me...even if they r joking...it bothers me..then i get even more annoyed 4 bein bothered...
bitch bitch bitch is all i do so im gonna go do sum more homework...hopefully go 2 sleep
yeah i have nobody 2 talk 2...granted it is 12:33...and yeah i just feel really alone...
i feel really distant from my boyfriend 4 like this whole week...like i have talked 2 him but i still feel like i cant reach him...like if were 2 hug him i wouldnt b able 2 hold onto him bc he always has 2 go and i HATE it...i kno he's busy and i knew it was gonna b like this but i need him a lot more than i think...and it really gets 2 me when i dont get 2 see him everyday..and its just gonna get worse with his new job...then i really wont get 2 see him...he swears i will but realistically i kno i wont...and im really happy 4 him and his new job but there prolly wont b netime 4 me cept sundays...i guess ill just hafta deal with it and quit bein so damn needy...but i cant help it...
i never talk 2 my best friend anymore...i dont feel like she's interested in anything i have 2 say...she says all i talk about is him...which of course i would say isnt true and of course she would say yes it is...i think thats all she hears is when i say sumthin bout him...i dont want 2 argue with her tho...i feel really detached from her 2...
i dunno what my problem is...this week started out bad...i didnt get 2 see him on monday..i knew i wouldnt...then tuesday wasnt very nice...i mean it was but it wasnt...didnt get 2 see him yesterday...behind in like 3 of my classes...i have NO money whatsoever...and i prolly wont work until the summer...just cuz my parents wont let me...im sick of school...sick of swimming...
i need a vacation...like a permanent one...school has come 2 feel like a waste of time...yes i kno why im in there...i just hate it...like seriously i am ready 2 move on...2 what im not 100% sure...but still...
i dunno what my problem is...but i kno i cant sleep...and i have nobody 2 talk 2...so here i am...
i have been so moody 4 like the past 2 weeks...granted i had my period last week but i shouldnt b moody now...like ill get irritated bc EVERYBODY picks at me...even if they r joking...it bothers me..then i get even more annoyed 4 bein bothered...
bitch bitch bitch is all i do so im gonna go do sum more homework...hopefully go 2 sleep