To die would be so sweet
I am so confused. I don't know what to feel anymore, My life is falling apart and the seems. It has been for the last 3 1/2 months since i left MI. I am lost w/out a script no one to talk to no one who really cares or knows me. No one in my family cares about what i feel, I'm always shut down. I am so good at hiding my feelings. My family doesn't know how much I miss MI and my friends and familym, They don't know that it kills me a little ea. day that i'm away. Now my heart and mind are just screaming, I cry silently to myself ea. night b/c i want to come home. They say home is where the heart is. Well i left my hert in MI, and in more than one way. I just want this pain to end. I just wanna die, no one would miss me accept maybe some ppl in MI, but the chances of me seeing that place again is slim to none. God I feel so incredibly Emo right now. YUCK! Oh incase i forgot to tell you Tim has his own wonderful life now, and i'm happy for him as much as it hurts. He's not my go to guy anymore. All I have to say is fuck life! I can't stand being in my house anymore. I just gotta go...I need to leace this place, run as fast and as far as I ca. I need freedom, wide open spaces. It's not a good idea for me to be alone right now. I am just always someones problem, I don't want to be someones problem anumore and compicate there lives. I'll just keep to myself. Thats what i've done my entire life, up until i met tim and well ther is no more tim he has a gf now. I just want to get so fucked up beyond belief. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! Shoot a fuckin monkey in the butt, better yet just shoot me. I am so tired fo life. I think i'm just meant to walk the meandering roads of life by myself. My eyes are red from days of tears the entirety of my life is stained with tears. Thats all my life is, one big sob story. I am having problemsdealing with these changes. I've been changing so much I don't know what to do how to react. Do i have a valid reason to be so depressed? All i have is memories. Memories of my best days. I really daon't think there are ny fantasmic days for me in my future. Life is a bitch, why is it dealt out so unfairly? I just want this pain to desist. I want the endless waterfall of tears to dissipate. God i am so selfish. I I I..I want to experience life again to be reborn. I want to know what it feels like to be happy again. I envy the people that walk around like life is peachy. What is it that makes them so happy? I just want my life to be normal for once. I want the fear in my to subside so than i may better carry on with my life, in the best way i know how. To everyone I care about, youknow who you are, I miss you dearly and hope you lives are great. One thing i ask of you is to learn to now take life so sriously, don't get attached to anyone or anything because in the long run it will be lost. Believe me i know. this is a song my derest scarlett told be about and it fits so well with what i'm feeling right now and what she is feeling for me.....Song: Without You Lyrics
MAUREEN
Without you, the ground thaws, the rain falls, the grass grows. Without you, the seeds root, the flowers bloom, the
children play. The stars gleam, the poets dream, the
eagles fly, without you. The earth turns, the sun burns, but I die, without you. Without you, the stars roar the breeze
warms, the girl smiles, the cloud moves. Without you, the tides change, the boys run, the oceans crash. The crowds roar,
the
days soar, the babies cry, without you. The moon glows, the river flows, but I die, without you.
MAUREEN & JOANNE
The world revives, colors renew, but I know blue, only blue, lonely blue, within
me blue.
MAUREEN
Without you. Without you the hand gropes, the ear hears, the pulse beats.
BOTH
Without you, the eyes gaze, the legs walk, the lungs breathe.
JOANNE
The mind churns!
MAUREEN
The mind churns!
JOANNE
The heart yearns!
MAUREEN
The heart yearns!
BOTH
The tears dry, without you. Life goes on, but I’m gone.
MAUREEN
Cause I die, without you.
JOANNE
Without you.
BOTH
Without you
===
ver. 2
ROGER
Where were you?
MIMI
I'm sorry I'm late...
ROGER
I know, You lost your keys. No, you went for a walk; you
had to help your mother. And how's Benny? I'm going
upstairs tonight.
MIMI
That's Not...
I Should Tell You
I Should...
Never mind...
ROGER
Happy Spring
(Roger leaves.)
MIMI
Without You
The Ground Thaws
The Rain Falls
The Grass Grows
Without You
The Seeds Root
The Flowers Bloom
The Children Play
The Stars Gleam
The Eagles Fly
Without You
The Earth Turns
The Sun Burns
But I Die
Without You
Without You
The Breeze Warms
The Girls Smile
The Cloud Moves
Without You
The Tides Change
The Oceans Crash
The Crowd Roars
The Days Soar
The Babies Cry
Without You
The Moon Glows
The River Flows
But I Die
Without You
ROGER
The World Revives
MIMI
Colors Renew
BOTH
But I Know Blue
Only Blue
Lonely Blue
Within Me, Blue
Without You
MIMI
Without You
The Hand Gropes
The Ear Hears
The Pulse Beats
ROGER
Without You
The Eyes Gaze
The Legs Walk
The Lungs Breathe
BOTH
The Mind Churns
The Heart Yearns
The Tears Dry
Without You
Life Goes On
But I'm Gone
Cause I Die
ROGER
Without You
MIMI
Without You
ROGER
Without You
BOTH
Without You
This song also goes along with what i am feeling and it is the current song i am listening to.....10 YEARS LYRICS
Wasteland
Change my attempt good intentions...
Crouched over
You were not there
Living in fear
But signs were not really that scarce
Obvious tears
And I will not
Hide you through this
I want you to help
Please see
The bleeding heart perched on my shirt
Die, withdraw
Hide in cold sweat
Quivering lips
Ignore remorse
Naming a kid, living wasteland
This time you've tried
All that you can turning you red
Change my attempt good intentions
Should I, could I
Here we are with your obsession
Should I, could I
Crowned hopeless
The article read living wasteland
This time you've tried
All that you can turning you red
but I will not
Hide you through this
I want you to help
Change my attempt good intentions
Should I, could I
Here we are with your obsession
Should I, could I
Heave the silver hollow sliver
Piercing through another victim
Turn and tremble be judgmental
Ignorant to all the symbols
Blind the face with beauty paste
Eventually you'll one day know
Change my attempt good intentions
Limbs tied, skin tight
Self inflicted his perdition
Should I, could I
Change my attempt good intentions
Should I, could I
Should I, could I
MAUREEN
Without you, the ground thaws, the rain falls, the grass grows. Without you, the seeds root, the flowers bloom, the
children play. The stars gleam, the poets dream, the
eagles fly, without you. The earth turns, the sun burns, but I die, without you. Without you, the stars roar the breeze
warms, the girl smiles, the cloud moves. Without you, the tides change, the boys run, the oceans crash. The crowds roar,
the
days soar, the babies cry, without you. The moon glows, the river flows, but I die, without you.
MAUREEN & JOANNE
The world revives, colors renew, but I know blue, only blue, lonely blue, within
me blue.
MAUREEN
Without you. Without you the hand gropes, the ear hears, the pulse beats.
BOTH
Without you, the eyes gaze, the legs walk, the lungs breathe.
JOANNE
The mind churns!
MAUREEN
The mind churns!
JOANNE
The heart yearns!
MAUREEN
The heart yearns!
BOTH
The tears dry, without you. Life goes on, but I’m gone.
MAUREEN
Cause I die, without you.
JOANNE
Without you.
BOTH
Without you
===
ver. 2
ROGER
Where were you?
MIMI
I'm sorry I'm late...
ROGER
I know, You lost your keys. No, you went for a walk; you
had to help your mother. And how's Benny? I'm going
upstairs tonight.
MIMI
That's Not...
I Should Tell You
I Should...
Never mind...
ROGER
Happy Spring
(Roger leaves.)
MIMI
Without You
The Ground Thaws
The Rain Falls
The Grass Grows
Without You
The Seeds Root
The Flowers Bloom
The Children Play
The Stars Gleam
The Eagles Fly
Without You
The Earth Turns
The Sun Burns
But I Die
Without You
Without You
The Breeze Warms
The Girls Smile
The Cloud Moves
Without You
The Tides Change
The Oceans Crash
The Crowd Roars
The Days Soar
The Babies Cry
Without You
The Moon Glows
The River Flows
But I Die
Without You
ROGER
The World Revives
MIMI
Colors Renew
BOTH
But I Know Blue
Only Blue
Lonely Blue
Within Me, Blue
Without You
MIMI
Without You
The Hand Gropes
The Ear Hears
The Pulse Beats
ROGER
Without You
The Eyes Gaze
The Legs Walk
The Lungs Breathe
BOTH
The Mind Churns
The Heart Yearns
The Tears Dry
Without You
Life Goes On
But I'm Gone
Cause I Die
ROGER
Without You
MIMI
Without You
ROGER
Without You
BOTH
Without You
This song also goes along with what i am feeling and it is the current song i am listening to.....10 YEARS LYRICS
Wasteland
Change my attempt good intentions...
Crouched over
You were not there
Living in fear
But signs were not really that scarce
Obvious tears
And I will not
Hide you through this
I want you to help
Please see
The bleeding heart perched on my shirt
Die, withdraw
Hide in cold sweat
Quivering lips
Ignore remorse
Naming a kid, living wasteland
This time you've tried
All that you can turning you red
Change my attempt good intentions
Should I, could I
Here we are with your obsession
Should I, could I
Crowned hopeless
The article read living wasteland
This time you've tried
All that you can turning you red
but I will not
Hide you through this
I want you to help
Change my attempt good intentions
Should I, could I
Here we are with your obsession
Should I, could I
Heave the silver hollow sliver
Piercing through another victim
Turn and tremble be judgmental
Ignorant to all the symbols
Blind the face with beauty paste
Eventually you'll one day know
Change my attempt good intentions
Limbs tied, skin tight
Self inflicted his perdition
Should I, could I
Change my attempt good intentions
Should I, could I
Should I, could I