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I think I need a major attitude ajustment. A serious life transplant. I spent far to much energy trying to get in good with people who don't give a shit about me. For instance, there's this one guy who I've known for a long time, but we've grown apart. I consistantly try to rekindle our frienship, which hasn't really been a real frienship for two years. Now evertime I ask him if he wants to hang out, I get a noncommittal "maybe." Or if I invite him to something specific he's always busy. At this point, there have been far to many blow-offs for it to just be that he's a busy dude. He's clearly uninterested in remaining friend with me. And my reaction to this realitization is really weird. I'm not angry, or hurt, or anything, but I keep trying despite what I'm complelely certain of. Moreover, at DeSales, I often felt like the odd man out, despite having a great time. Now I'm planning a big reunion party. Why do I feel the need to make these people like me?
I have to start thinking about myself more, and pitying myself less. I need to work out and smile more and talk and laugh and make new friends instead of pining over old ones or wondering about missed oppurtunities for friendships. So that's the plan. I'm stating a new school where I know no one, and I think maybe I already got a relationship or two started. I'll go from there. Wish me luck.
I have to start thinking about myself more, and pitying myself less. I need to work out and smile more and talk and laugh and make new friends instead of pining over old ones or wondering about missed oppurtunities for friendships. So that's the plan. I'm stating a new school where I know no one, and I think maybe I already got a relationship or two started. I'll go from there. Wish me luck.