Another Apology...
I know I've been very slow in updating my J2 series. It's an old news, a shameful public secret. And all these times, I always gave you weak reasons and excuses which was causing my muse to be ushered forward as my shield and be the one to be blamed at.
But this time I'm asking for your patience and understanding because the reason behind me delaying the update of chapter 20 of Reaching for Happiness are strongly caused by these reasons:
1. Maybe you can tell already, but my life is a mess, and I admit I'm a little fucked up in the head. But still, on my normal days, there were lollipop and candy canes for me in life once in a while to keep me sane. However... these days my life is all dark and scary and sad. To tell you shortly, I get depressed. A bad episode too, since I always seem to find myself crying with no reason whatsoever at least once a day. I skipped my classes, intently missed the deadline of my homeworks, and I did even worse and crazier things than I'm used to do. Then one day I woke up --feeling so very shitty-- and decided that I need to fix whatever this is, ASAP. So I made an appointment with a psychologist in town and therefore up until now, I'm currently still being assigned to a series of psychotherapy sessions. Of course you can imagine that I'm in no condition to write because of that, can't you?
2. My older sister was getting married two days ago. And the preparational process of the wedding party and all the tid bits following the said event had been taking months of my family's time, including mine. So even when I wanted to, I couldn't find time to sit down and write.
And so those two main reasons sum up my explanation for yet another terribly long update. I can't say enough how sorry I am. Really. Especially for you who kept sending me messages and comments and nudges to continue the story (Yes, Tisha, I hope you can forgive me. ^^;). I know that even when people said they understand why I keep delaying my updates, they still somehow feel dissapointed by me. For that, I once again can't say anything but, 'I'm sorry.'
But I think the highest tide in my life has been over now. My soul is quite at peace at the moment, my sister's wedding buzz has been over, and so I decide to write again. I still can't promise you when I'll post my next chapter since this one will be a very very long chapter but I'm busting my ass here to write it down (I really want to finish the piece before christmas so I can post it for you as my christmas present, but December 25th is only three more days away and I think I still have too many words unwritten so I guess it can't be done. T______T).
Thank you for your understanding. Thank you for everything.
Love,
Mitha
But this time I'm asking for your patience and understanding because the reason behind me delaying the update of chapter 20 of Reaching for Happiness are strongly caused by these reasons:
1. Maybe you can tell already, but my life is a mess, and I admit I'm a little fucked up in the head. But still, on my normal days, there were lollipop and candy canes for me in life once in a while to keep me sane. However... these days my life is all dark and scary and sad. To tell you shortly, I get depressed. A bad episode too, since I always seem to find myself crying with no reason whatsoever at least once a day. I skipped my classes, intently missed the deadline of my homeworks, and I did even worse and crazier things than I'm used to do. Then one day I woke up --feeling so very shitty-- and decided that I need to fix whatever this is, ASAP. So I made an appointment with a psychologist in town and therefore up until now, I'm currently still being assigned to a series of psychotherapy sessions. Of course you can imagine that I'm in no condition to write because of that, can't you?
2. My older sister was getting married two days ago. And the preparational process of the wedding party and all the tid bits following the said event had been taking months of my family's time, including mine. So even when I wanted to, I couldn't find time to sit down and write.
And so those two main reasons sum up my explanation for yet another terribly long update. I can't say enough how sorry I am. Really. Especially for you who kept sending me messages and comments and nudges to continue the story (Yes, Tisha, I hope you can forgive me. ^^;). I know that even when people said they understand why I keep delaying my updates, they still somehow feel dissapointed by me. For that, I once again can't say anything but, 'I'm sorry.'
But I think the highest tide in my life has been over now. My soul is quite at peace at the moment, my sister's wedding buzz has been over, and so I decide to write again. I still can't promise you when I'll post my next chapter since this one will be a very very long chapter but I'm busting my ass here to write it down (I really want to finish the piece before christmas so I can post it for you as my christmas present, but December 25th is only three more days away and I think I still have too many words unwritten so I guess it can't be done. T______T).
Thank you for your understanding. Thank you for everything.
Love,
Mitha