Yes, I have problems
I can't seem to forget my worries.
Figuring out who you are at 21 is giving me a headache from Hell.
God, if you're out there, why did you make me so sensitive and so oblivious to what was out there in the first place? There are so many things I don't get, and so many fears that I have yet to tackle.
I was so convinced I wouldn't make it. It was the end of last semester and I thought it was the end because I wasn't getting any sleep and I was drinking and smoking too much and worrying myself into a pile of rubbish. I am tired of not knowing who I am and being afraid to look into the mirror. I am so scared. I'm so scared I can't even think straight sometimes.
My thoughts always plague me and I almost never get left alone because there is some sort of struggle between the little boy in me and the adult that wants to succeed, but is afraid of it.
I don't know where to go, or whose porch step to wind up on. Every day I feel so silly and so worthless, even though I know the latter to be untrue (because I am one silly motherfucker)
Why can't I just develop normal self esteem? What is setting me back? Please, if anyone has any advice it would be appreciated, because I am having a really, really hard time and I'm so scared.
Jeremy
Figuring out who you are at 21 is giving me a headache from Hell.
God, if you're out there, why did you make me so sensitive and so oblivious to what was out there in the first place? There are so many things I don't get, and so many fears that I have yet to tackle.
I was so convinced I wouldn't make it. It was the end of last semester and I thought it was the end because I wasn't getting any sleep and I was drinking and smoking too much and worrying myself into a pile of rubbish. I am tired of not knowing who I am and being afraid to look into the mirror. I am so scared. I'm so scared I can't even think straight sometimes.
My thoughts always plague me and I almost never get left alone because there is some sort of struggle between the little boy in me and the adult that wants to succeed, but is afraid of it.
I don't know where to go, or whose porch step to wind up on. Every day I feel so silly and so worthless, even though I know the latter to be untrue (because I am one silly motherfucker)
Why can't I just develop normal self esteem? What is setting me back? Please, if anyone has any advice it would be appreciated, because I am having a really, really hard time and I'm so scared.
Jeremy