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I'm drunk so lets update
okay, spent the night at evans with shane, my good friend, john,alex,ryan,blair,garrett and michelle. I'm tired and my stomache really hurts.
I want to cry i miss him so much. why did he do it to me. i so badly want to be in his arms, i want him to come online or email or call and say "i'm sorry" even if he leaves right after.
what happened to the.. no omatter what i'll come after u, i'll always love u.. i refuse to believe that was all fake.
he has a new girl now. i was pushed aside so quickly it seems.. or maybe its been building up, maybe it was easy for him. i wonder if hes been crying, or if he cried once. I cried, but not alot
chase i love you, but i can never have u back after what u did, although a friendship in the long run would be good.i miss ur hugs.. and ur eyes.. and ur hands.. and ick i'm drunk and i'm gonna cry.
it appears derek has pissed u off again and now u won't talk to me
i'm so fucking alone, i feel so alone. like.. i need to be held, but everytime sumone does its not the same, its never the same and it won't be good for a while. i want it to be good now, i want to feel comfort.
everyone is so content in digging themselves into their own holes.
shane thank u for tonight u helped, i'm glad ur my good friend
why
ugh
I relize now why i've been okay..... cuz i haven't been thinking about u, but tonight i did.
i should go cuz i'm just being stupid
ta ta
okay, spent the night at evans with shane, my good friend, john,alex,ryan,blair,garrett and michelle. I'm tired and my stomache really hurts.
I want to cry i miss him so much. why did he do it to me. i so badly want to be in his arms, i want him to come online or email or call and say "i'm sorry" even if he leaves right after.
what happened to the.. no omatter what i'll come after u, i'll always love u.. i refuse to believe that was all fake.
he has a new girl now. i was pushed aside so quickly it seems.. or maybe its been building up, maybe it was easy for him. i wonder if hes been crying, or if he cried once. I cried, but not alot
chase i love you, but i can never have u back after what u did, although a friendship in the long run would be good.i miss ur hugs.. and ur eyes.. and ur hands.. and ick i'm drunk and i'm gonna cry.
it appears derek has pissed u off again and now u won't talk to me
i'm so fucking alone, i feel so alone. like.. i need to be held, but everytime sumone does its not the same, its never the same and it won't be good for a while. i want it to be good now, i want to feel comfort.
everyone is so content in digging themselves into their own holes.
shane thank u for tonight u helped, i'm glad ur my good friend
why
ugh
I relize now why i've been okay..... cuz i haven't been thinking about u, but tonight i did.
i should go cuz i'm just being stupid
ta ta