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so to start this all off.
my dad wants us to move.(I'm hoping its a sick joke)
He suggested Arizona, and then telling me it was close to California (like it was a bribe or something?)
I told him California could kiss my ass.(sorry mat, haha) and that I wasn't moving.
I can't imagine living somewhere else, the thought of not seeing my friends everyday makes me want to puke.
It makes me sad that my dad is to the point now with Ford, where he's making jokes about getting cut.
I can tell this christmas is going to be really hard, and that also makes me sad.
It's like my family is in a pit.
My mom can't get a job because I'll have to quit mine and babysit for what would seem like the rest of my life.
I know this is really selfish and unkind of me to say, but I really wish Olivia wasn't born sometimes.
We would probably be more financially stable, and we wouldn't have to worry about my mom having a job.
I'm not going anywhere Thanksgiving break. My mom and Olivia might go down to Georgia though, so my mom can see one of her best friends, so I will be evacuating the house before world war 3 starts.
I just find myself so stressed out lately. I got my report card, and cried on the way to work about it. I was so disappointed in myself, it made me sick.
People at school aren't making it much easier either, even though I try hard as hell to keep a fucking smile on my face because I hate drama.
I apologize with how my friends are acting, I have been telling them to stop, but obviously they just feel the need to keep doing it?
People need to grow up, that's it. Just grow up and stop with the stupid middle school jokes that I am so sick of hearing about.
oh and, for those of you who heard that I went on a date saturday. yeah that was a bust.
why do I always find the guys that just want to come down here and get some? and then I say no because you aren't my boyfriend, and they stop flirting with me, which just you know, increases my self-esteem so fucking much.
I've also found that the only people who find me attractive are pretty much all over the age of 20. Or at least have a lot of maturity for their age.
whatever, I'll stay single the rest of my life.
DON'T CARE
the + side to this entry.
I FINALLY WENT ON THE DRAGSTER.
mmm that was my #1 fear. and I did it.
of course, crying and having people stare at me in line though :-)
thaaaaaaanks to kim! Who, not even exaggerating, DRAGGED me into the line, because I would stop dead in my tracks and not move, made me go on it.
hahahahah and took pictures of my freaking out while we were waiting.
I only started crying when we were waiting for the car to pull up.
and then when we rolled up to the lights I balled. I haven't cried like that in a very long time, it was too the point where you probably thought someone was going to kill me.
and then you know, going 120 mph, the tears dried up pretty quick :-D
my dad wants us to move.(I'm hoping its a sick joke)
He suggested Arizona, and then telling me it was close to California (like it was a bribe or something?)
I told him California could kiss my ass.(sorry mat, haha) and that I wasn't moving.
I can't imagine living somewhere else, the thought of not seeing my friends everyday makes me want to puke.
It makes me sad that my dad is to the point now with Ford, where he's making jokes about getting cut.
I can tell this christmas is going to be really hard, and that also makes me sad.
It's like my family is in a pit.
My mom can't get a job because I'll have to quit mine and babysit for what would seem like the rest of my life.
I know this is really selfish and unkind of me to say, but I really wish Olivia wasn't born sometimes.
We would probably be more financially stable, and we wouldn't have to worry about my mom having a job.
I'm not going anywhere Thanksgiving break. My mom and Olivia might go down to Georgia though, so my mom can see one of her best friends, so I will be evacuating the house before world war 3 starts.
I just find myself so stressed out lately. I got my report card, and cried on the way to work about it. I was so disappointed in myself, it made me sick.
People at school aren't making it much easier either, even though I try hard as hell to keep a fucking smile on my face because I hate drama.
I apologize with how my friends are acting, I have been telling them to stop, but obviously they just feel the need to keep doing it?
People need to grow up, that's it. Just grow up and stop with the stupid middle school jokes that I am so sick of hearing about.
oh and, for those of you who heard that I went on a date saturday. yeah that was a bust.
why do I always find the guys that just want to come down here and get some? and then I say no because you aren't my boyfriend, and they stop flirting with me, which just you know, increases my self-esteem so fucking much.
I've also found that the only people who find me attractive are pretty much all over the age of 20. Or at least have a lot of maturity for their age.
whatever, I'll stay single the rest of my life.
DON'T CARE
the + side to this entry.
I FINALLY WENT ON THE DRAGSTER.
mmm that was my #1 fear. and I did it.
of course, crying and having people stare at me in line though :-)
thaaaaaaanks to kim! Who, not even exaggerating, DRAGGED me into the line, because I would stop dead in my tracks and not move, made me go on it.
hahahahah and took pictures of my freaking out while we were waiting.
I only started crying when we were waiting for the car to pull up.
and then when we rolled up to the lights I balled. I haven't cried like that in a very long time, it was too the point where you probably thought someone was going to kill me.
and then you know, going 120 mph, the tears dried up pretty quick :-D