Muses are back but drunk
I'm writing Westward Look again - couple of thousand words last night. I've skipped to the middle-ish parts because my head is currently full of Josh, and there's a minor estrangement at the beginning which killed his earlier presence.
The problem is - I'm not sure how all my skipping around is going to help my already troubled narrative arcs. There are bits of this story I'm kinda proud of, and other bits that I suspect would be good if I hadn't read them a hundred times. But there's a few huge sections that need rewriting because they're ridiculously sappy. And a few all dialogue bits that need rewritten to make them not scripts.
The things is, this story seems to have some themes, and some balancing acts, but I can't see the big picture. Partially because of too much immersion, partially because I'm less than half-way through my projected plan. And I worry that I love Sam too much, and therefore Toby gets to be the one doing most of the screwing up of things, which isn't very fair. There's a bit I like, where Toby is doing some silent early-morning longing of Sam, who's lying asleep beside him. Because I do think Toby sees Sam as a thing apart from him, not just younger but purer. And Sam wakes up and is nothing like Toby's projected image of him. So I like that because it acknowledges that Toby's idea of Sam isn't how Sam is all the time, and certainly isn't how Sam sees himself. Plus Sam does quite a bit of longing himself. But Sam doesn't have a possible-jail sentence, President!issues, or an ex-wife he's still in love with, and I can't figure out how to make Toby the rational balanced one of their pair without bringing in some angst for Sam in this middle section. And as raedbard has already shot him... Suggestions are welcome.
I'm icon-making too, because I've seen all of the series now. (Did anyone else watch the more4 quiz? And shout out the answers faster than the contestants?) So Josh-Toby icons because I'm in that kind of place right now. But I'm sure I'll find some use for all those new Sam caps... ;-)
Also doing some Angels in America icons because I just watched that. Now maybe it's because I love pretty-worded monologues, or apocalyptic/religious toned things, or boy!love. Maybe it's because I really love feathered wings. But I loved this. However, the actor who played Prior should have got a better billing than Meryl Streep or Al Pacino. Which, yes, never going to happen, but the world should be fairer. He had the biggest role, and was the centre of the piece. So there Emmy people...
In more "me" news - I applied for the GRE finally. And have two out of my projected four places to apply to (Harvard and Georgetown). Where else is good for political science? Preferably in North-East, maybe California. (Which I do know is the opposite of North East). In addition, I've pulled something in my back which is killing me. It's just about okay if I lie still, but as I can't even lie still in bed for ten minutes without being asleep - not so much fun. *pouts*
The problem is - I'm not sure how all my skipping around is going to help my already troubled narrative arcs. There are bits of this story I'm kinda proud of, and other bits that I suspect would be good if I hadn't read them a hundred times. But there's a few huge sections that need rewriting because they're ridiculously sappy. And a few all dialogue bits that need rewritten to make them not scripts.
The things is, this story seems to have some themes, and some balancing acts, but I can't see the big picture. Partially because of too much immersion, partially because I'm less than half-way through my projected plan. And I worry that I love Sam too much, and therefore Toby gets to be the one doing most of the screwing up of things, which isn't very fair. There's a bit I like, where Toby is doing some silent early-morning longing of Sam, who's lying asleep beside him. Because I do think Toby sees Sam as a thing apart from him, not just younger but purer. And Sam wakes up and is nothing like Toby's projected image of him. So I like that because it acknowledges that Toby's idea of Sam isn't how Sam is all the time, and certainly isn't how Sam sees himself. Plus Sam does quite a bit of longing himself. But Sam doesn't have a possible-jail sentence, President!issues, or an ex-wife he's still in love with, and I can't figure out how to make Toby the rational balanced one of their pair without bringing in some angst for Sam in this middle section. And as raedbard has already shot him... Suggestions are welcome.
I'm icon-making too, because I've seen all of the series now. (Did anyone else watch the more4 quiz? And shout out the answers faster than the contestants?) So Josh-Toby icons because I'm in that kind of place right now. But I'm sure I'll find some use for all those new Sam caps... ;-)
Also doing some Angels in America icons because I just watched that. Now maybe it's because I love pretty-worded monologues, or apocalyptic/religious toned things, or boy!love. Maybe it's because I really love feathered wings. But I loved this. However, the actor who played Prior should have got a better billing than Meryl Streep or Al Pacino. Which, yes, never going to happen, but the world should be fairer. He had the biggest role, and was the centre of the piece. So there Emmy people...
In more "me" news - I applied for the GRE finally. And have two out of my projected four places to apply to (Harvard and Georgetown). Where else is good for political science? Preferably in North-East, maybe California. (Which I do know is the opposite of North East). In addition, I've pulled something in my back which is killing me. It's just about okay if I lie still, but as I can't even lie still in bed for ten minutes without being asleep - not so much fun. *pouts*