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for lack of a better, non-emo expression...
im falling apart.
my grandfather died this morning. the only one i had left. i had seen him twice in my life. but he was still my grandfather. and i still loved him. he died in his sleep. of kidney failure.
all this means my mom is staying another week. thats a month in total. now, i can live without my mom for now, bc i know my grandmother needs her more, but its kinda hard without her here when my dad and brother are driving me insane.
also, i have my driving test coming up, and i really needed her support. practising driving with my dad makes me never want to drive again.
but again, i must be selfless in situations like this.
now the second part of my day.
i had called bobby yesterday to tell him that i want to meet him to exchange our books, (he has 3 of mine, i have one of his) bc i had a feeeling that we were drifting apart, which was ok with me. so he called me today, said a bunch of 'im sorrys' about our short past together and all the times he fucked up, and then informed me hes moving to montreal or spain in a few weeks. now, overall, i really dont care. i kinda want him out of my life, bc he was very messed up. but its still a bit sad, bc we *did* have a lot of good times together. and seeing him again. thats not going to be nice. i dont really want to. so im supposed to see him either tomorrow or saturday night. :S
and then stupid mcmaster informs me that they didnt get one of my OT forms that i was supposed to mail to them. when i am 100% sure i did. so i go online to find it and send it again, but i cant find it ANYWHERE. so those fucks better give me a link.
and then the one weekend where i was gonna make plans every day so i could get my mind off shit, they announce theres gonna be a huuuuuge snowstorm at the beginning of the weekend. just lovely.
oh! and im supposed to get my period. any day now.
im falling apart.
my grandfather died this morning. the only one i had left. i had seen him twice in my life. but he was still my grandfather. and i still loved him. he died in his sleep. of kidney failure.
all this means my mom is staying another week. thats a month in total. now, i can live without my mom for now, bc i know my grandmother needs her more, but its kinda hard without her here when my dad and brother are driving me insane.
also, i have my driving test coming up, and i really needed her support. practising driving with my dad makes me never want to drive again.
but again, i must be selfless in situations like this.
now the second part of my day.
i had called bobby yesterday to tell him that i want to meet him to exchange our books, (he has 3 of mine, i have one of his) bc i had a feeeling that we were drifting apart, which was ok with me. so he called me today, said a bunch of 'im sorrys' about our short past together and all the times he fucked up, and then informed me hes moving to montreal or spain in a few weeks. now, overall, i really dont care. i kinda want him out of my life, bc he was very messed up. but its still a bit sad, bc we *did* have a lot of good times together. and seeing him again. thats not going to be nice. i dont really want to. so im supposed to see him either tomorrow or saturday night. :S
and then stupid mcmaster informs me that they didnt get one of my OT forms that i was supposed to mail to them. when i am 100% sure i did. so i go online to find it and send it again, but i cant find it ANYWHERE. so those fucks better give me a link.
and then the one weekend where i was gonna make plans every day so i could get my mind off shit, they announce theres gonna be a huuuuuge snowstorm at the beginning of the weekend. just lovely.
oh! and im supposed to get my period. any day now.