Hey little girl with the big brown eyes, I see your mascara running down with tears in your eyes
It's a lot different when you're not allowed in your house and when you chose to stay out all weekend. I miss Kyle and Kiri.....
And I just don't know what to do....I don't think I should go back tehre until I have another job....but I just know when I go back....things won't be the same...at all....she was the one person I thought would always have my back...she called the cops on me.....how can I trust her nw. How can I rest easy at home now that I know how...easily and willing she is to take that away from me. home is supposed to be a safe haven...where the heart is....I just canèt think of it that way now....I just canèt see me going back there and being at ease....having fun being relaxed and feeling safe....I know now why people whoève been kicked out before always seem to keep stuff in their purse...so they can live a day at someone elses house until they can negotiate a pick up of their own stuff....
Job hunting today....I need to call and pick up some of my clothes from home.....and other stuff....I dont want to do that...but I have to...Ièll call now and and see when I can go over...maybe around 10....get some new clothes....shave my legs and stuff. And then start doing resumes all over again...
Dylan has been prefect and sweet and supportive...and....Ive found myself talking to him more and more about spirtuality and beliefs and god and other things.....I dont know why I ever stopped....maybe because I felt like I was on my own.....but I do know that Ive started saying silent prayers in my head at ngiht....I dont know what good that will do...but if He is really all knowing and loving and such...He will hear it right...I donèt know.....Ive got nothing else to lose....I dont know what else to do....Ive got no one else to turn to...to put my trust in...to believe in....no other erason to believe that things will finally start going my way....so why not turn back to Him...I dont know.....If anyone needs me...I try to check my email during the day...but after 4pm its hard...so call my cell or text it if you need me. 905-807-9593
-Your troubles become your wisdom when you meet a troubled soul. For you can help them through the storm-
And I just don't know what to do....I don't think I should go back tehre until I have another job....but I just know when I go back....things won't be the same...at all....she was the one person I thought would always have my back...she called the cops on me.....how can I trust her nw. How can I rest easy at home now that I know how...easily and willing she is to take that away from me. home is supposed to be a safe haven...where the heart is....I just canèt think of it that way now....I just canèt see me going back there and being at ease....having fun being relaxed and feeling safe....I know now why people whoève been kicked out before always seem to keep stuff in their purse...so they can live a day at someone elses house until they can negotiate a pick up of their own stuff....
Job hunting today....I need to call and pick up some of my clothes from home.....and other stuff....I dont want to do that...but I have to...Ièll call now and and see when I can go over...maybe around 10....get some new clothes....shave my legs and stuff. And then start doing resumes all over again...
Dylan has been prefect and sweet and supportive...and....Ive found myself talking to him more and more about spirtuality and beliefs and god and other things.....I dont know why I ever stopped....maybe because I felt like I was on my own.....but I do know that Ive started saying silent prayers in my head at ngiht....I dont know what good that will do...but if He is really all knowing and loving and such...He will hear it right...I donèt know.....Ive got nothing else to lose....I dont know what else to do....Ive got no one else to turn to...to put my trust in...to believe in....no other erason to believe that things will finally start going my way....so why not turn back to Him...I dont know.....If anyone needs me...I try to check my email during the day...but after 4pm its hard...so call my cell or text it if you need me. 905-807-9593
-Your troubles become your wisdom when you meet a troubled soul. For you can help them through the storm-